Its been quite sometime since i've written anything really constructive here. In fact, its been a long while since i've written anything good for good.
So here we go, looking at the end of another year and i cant help but think back on the good and the bad that happened in 2008.
First of all, the most major change in my life this year is of cos, me getting into the rat race of the career ladder. no matter how i hated this kinda thing, i was in fact quite ok with the job i have now. nothing great, there are no amazing prospect or good pay but the ppl and the job environment are not too bad actually. i suppose i was kinda lucky on my first try.
However, having a job means my life is also quite mundane and boring. nothing else major happened this year though but i wont call it smooth selling bcos there are always the ups and downs but nothing too big that i have to cry over.
Gosh!! I realised, i really do not have too much to say about 2008. not bcos i do not want to share, its simply bcos it is THIS mundane!
But nevertheless, now is a good time to really think about what i want to do for the rest of my 50 years. it is not good to hav no directions in life, maybe i havent spent enough time thinking about it really good. something good ought to come out of it, no? but of cos, i noe that thinking too much negative stuff is not going to be too good, overly positive isn't the best either. so, an in-between would be nice. life isn't, and never will be, perfect; just make the best out of it while we still can.
With this, i hope the coming year and those that follow will be more blessed than 2008 ya?
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Sunday, December 14, 2008
Thursday, December 4, 2008
Baby Don't You Break My Heart Slow...
I like the way you wanted me
Every night for so long baby
I like the way you needed me
Every time things got rocky
I was believing in you
Was I mistaken,
Do you say, do you say what you mean
I want our love to last forever
But I'd rather you be mean than love and lie
I'd rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
I'd rather take a blow at least then I would know
But baby don't you break my heart slow
I like the way you'd hold me
Every night for so long baby
And I like the way you'd say my name
In the middle of the night
While you were sleeping
I was believing in you
Was I mistaken
Do you mean, do you mean what you say
When you say our love could last forever
Well I'd rather you be mean than love and lie
I'd rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
I'd rather take a blow at least then I would know
But baby don't you break my heart slow
You would run around and lead me on forever
While I wait at home still thinking that we're together
I wanted our love to last forever
I was believing in you
Well I'd rather you be mean than love and lie
I'd rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
I'd rather take a blow at least then I would know
But baby don't you break my heart slow
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
New lappy..
This is the first blog post typed using my brand new macbook!!! finally, after waiting for 1 mth, i got my 2nd laptop in 5 years... i really like to hang on to old stuff huh...
Got this laptop for slightly over $2000.. quite a good deal as you cant get anything cheaper than 2088 in apply store. somehow i regret abit for not getting the higher specs 1... though it cost about 410 more... its ok, save the $$ for other things ba..
Anyway, my event at expo is finally over! hai... now i just feel like slacking in the office doing nothing... but, still have to prepare for the meeting next year jan. i really dreaded that!!!
I wonder how long i can still last here... sometimes i really feel rather pek cek cos of certain things n ppl.. but what to do? nothing is perfect...
And there is one thing i really have to feedback about this laptop.. i am suffering from painful wrists now! the edge of the typing area is so sharp that it is like committing suicide on this thing. bleah... n also, i really cant get use to the screen of this thing, causing my headache n eyestrain after looking at it for more than 30 mins and i will feel like vomitting.. omg, thank god it is much better now. on 2nd thought, maybe its better i didnt go for the better specs 1 bcos i dunnoe how long i can use this laptop for. but really, this pc of thing is the most beautiful laptop i hav ever seen, 2nd only to the macbook air n it is very fast & stable.
Xmas is here soon! its time to care and share again!
Got this laptop for slightly over $2000.. quite a good deal as you cant get anything cheaper than 2088 in apply store. somehow i regret abit for not getting the higher specs 1... though it cost about 410 more... its ok, save the $$ for other things ba..
Anyway, my event at expo is finally over! hai... now i just feel like slacking in the office doing nothing... but, still have to prepare for the meeting next year jan. i really dreaded that!!!
I wonder how long i can still last here... sometimes i really feel rather pek cek cos of certain things n ppl.. but what to do? nothing is perfect...
And there is one thing i really have to feedback about this laptop.. i am suffering from painful wrists now! the edge of the typing area is so sharp that it is like committing suicide on this thing. bleah... n also, i really cant get use to the screen of this thing, causing my headache n eyestrain after looking at it for more than 30 mins and i will feel like vomitting.. omg, thank god it is much better now. on 2nd thought, maybe its better i didnt go for the better specs 1 bcos i dunnoe how long i can use this laptop for. but really, this pc of thing is the most beautiful laptop i hav ever seen, 2nd only to the macbook air n it is very fast & stable.
Xmas is here soon! its time to care and share again!
Sunday, November 16, 2008
I really don't understand, how can ppl be in such a "i don't care" attitude n take everything around them as "a matter of fucking fact"? the last i check, every single thing in this world happened for a reason, for everything u have taken for granted, ppl went thru the bumps and turns to make it happened!
Sometimes it gets a little too tiring to worry about this and that, do too much for this and that and care too much for this and that. at the end of it all u will be asking urself, what is the freaking pt for all that??
I guess some ppl r just blessed to be so self-centered since birth and they can just push all the blames to everyone ard them n u guessed it! they hav nv, ever made a mistake since they were born! gosh, how i wish i have their houlier than thou attitude, NOT! N its even better if i am being treated like a desperate fool... =)
And you know what? i think i am getting better at being a hypocrite. ;)
Sometimes it gets a little too tiring to worry about this and that, do too much for this and that and care too much for this and that. at the end of it all u will be asking urself, what is the freaking pt for all that??
I guess some ppl r just blessed to be so self-centered since birth and they can just push all the blames to everyone ard them n u guessed it! they hav nv, ever made a mistake since they were born! gosh, how i wish i have their houlier than thou attitude, NOT! N its even better if i am being treated like a desperate fool... =)
And you know what? i think i am getting better at being a hypocrite. ;)
Friday, November 14, 2008
blah!
Today was really quite a tiring day... didn't get enough sleep recently (which i think i'll nv get enuff sleep..) and didn't hav the mood to work at all as well and seriously, i havent been in such "bad" mood for quite some time already! reason? well, i rather not share bcos i noe its dumb but i am dumb anyway rite?
Anyway, for the first time, i actually walked by myself from wisma all the way till PS and not stopping at any shopping centre to do any shopping or whatsoever. it really is a different feeling to walk by myself on a really busy street with ppl passing by n such. did some thinking and reflection, well.. haven't i had enough hard lessons by now? i shld remind myself, WAKE UP!!!
Work is getting busier recently but i havn't had much will to work really hard. who can predict the future rite? maybe nex yr i will get retrenched! hahaha... *shrug
Btw, i hav gotten better after the thinking thru.. trust me, i've been thru MUCH worse! =P
Anyway, for the first time, i actually walked by myself from wisma all the way till PS and not stopping at any shopping centre to do any shopping or whatsoever. it really is a different feeling to walk by myself on a really busy street with ppl passing by n such. did some thinking and reflection, well.. haven't i had enough hard lessons by now? i shld remind myself, WAKE UP!!!
Work is getting busier recently but i havn't had much will to work really hard. who can predict the future rite? maybe nex yr i will get retrenched! hahaha... *shrug
Btw, i hav gotten better after the thinking thru.. trust me, i've been thru MUCH worse! =P
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Let's see... its been almost 1 mth since i've last updated this blog, really didn't have anything THAT great to blog about. i guess the trend to blog is dying down now.. haha..
So, what to update about my life as if most of my frenz havent already know? well, for 1, work is beginning to suck. oh my... more n more shit started trumbling down n i am getting so tired to go to work sometimes. wat is the cause? well.. its nothing of a BIG deal but as they said, many smalls can become 1 big issue! its nothing that i cant handly, yet. but many a times i have to ask myself, is there a pt for me to do all these?
I nv like the corporate world, nv had n nv will... but with the economy in such a state now, its really not a good time to think of departure. its almost 9 mths n i have nv stay in a single job for so long b4.. i really need to find some drive back!
Anyway, i sooooo miss my shanghai days that i started looking through those photos again. all of us must be having 1 hell of a good time this time last yr - we shld b about to go to QianDaoHu area.. haha.. frankly, it was really a memorable n fun time tat i shall nv forget in my life.. but tat only makes me feel more miserable now..
Hahaha.. well, its really not tat bad la.. Hopefully, more good time will come.. n we shall all do our best n look forward to the festive season together... =)
So, what to update about my life as if most of my frenz havent already know? well, for 1, work is beginning to suck. oh my... more n more shit started trumbling down n i am getting so tired to go to work sometimes. wat is the cause? well.. its nothing of a BIG deal but as they said, many smalls can become 1 big issue! its nothing that i cant handly, yet. but many a times i have to ask myself, is there a pt for me to do all these?
I nv like the corporate world, nv had n nv will... but with the economy in such a state now, its really not a good time to think of departure. its almost 9 mths n i have nv stay in a single job for so long b4.. i really need to find some drive back!
Anyway, i sooooo miss my shanghai days that i started looking through those photos again. all of us must be having 1 hell of a good time this time last yr - we shld b about to go to QianDaoHu area.. haha.. frankly, it was really a memorable n fun time tat i shall nv forget in my life.. but tat only makes me feel more miserable now..
Hahaha.. well, its really not tat bad la.. Hopefully, more good time will come.. n we shall all do our best n look forward to the festive season together... =)
Sunday, October 5, 2008
In...
Hey peeps, i'm still alive! and finally decided to update this half-abandone blog of mine. haha.. seriously, i dun have much to update about my life except for working-related stuff. n i do not want to talk to much about working-related stuff actually... kinda BORING!
Anyway, just back from Batam where we had our internal kickoff teambuilding n stuff. man, not very good actually... still thinking how lost was i! well, maybe working world is like that lor.. n i feel very tired as well although its only a 1 night trip..
So tomorrow is back to work again! man... busy stuff, lots of things to rush n millions of things pending up. feel kinda bored to do the same stuff over n over again.. so i actually admire those who can work in the same job for over 10 years! phew... anyway, things will only get busier and the only thing i am looking forward to will be the bonuses!!! haha... excited.. waiting for end of oct to come and then when the new macs come, its time for me to get a new lappy! hee..
Out.. for now..
Anyway, just back from Batam where we had our internal kickoff teambuilding n stuff. man, not very good actually... still thinking how lost was i! well, maybe working world is like that lor.. n i feel very tired as well although its only a 1 night trip..
So tomorrow is back to work again! man... busy stuff, lots of things to rush n millions of things pending up. feel kinda bored to do the same stuff over n over again.. so i actually admire those who can work in the same job for over 10 years! phew... anyway, things will only get busier and the only thing i am looking forward to will be the bonuses!!! haha... excited.. waiting for end of oct to come and then when the new macs come, its time for me to get a new lappy! hee..
Out.. for now..
Sunday, September 7, 2008
i'm driving ard...
I like to take a drive around the island once in awhile... usually at nite when there aren't many cars n u can enjoy the cool breeze hitting your face.
Had quite an eventful day today. went half across the island to have sushi.. haha.. a meal tat cost $55++ for 2. went for some strolling by the sea and a trip to T3. well, destressed alright n spent quite a lot... woah.. a trip like tat can cost $50. living in sg is indeed exp.
Well.. it was a good day, but how many days in a year can be like this? tml is back-to-work-super-crappy day. ARGH! some moments just cant last forever......
Had quite an eventful day today. went half across the island to have sushi.. haha.. a meal tat cost $55++ for 2. went for some strolling by the sea and a trip to T3. well, destressed alright n spent quite a lot... woah.. a trip like tat can cost $50. living in sg is indeed exp.
Well.. it was a good day, but how many days in a year can be like this? tml is back-to-work-super-crappy day. ARGH! some moments just cant last forever......
需要一点勇气
来对你说对不起
他一直在你的心中
我还爱上你
知道这样不行
偏偏继续下去
怎么会有结果
是我想太多
没有方向看不清楚在徘徊
我知道我一定
走不开
漫长的路寂寞的夜
在心里面哭泣的夜
你明白吗
只想在你的身边
我没有勇气没有力气
真的无法离你而去
你明白吗
只想在你的身边
你身边说爱你
需要一点勇气
来面对现在的心情
也许时间依旧
很快就忘记
知道这样不行
偏偏继续下去
怎么会有结果
是我想太多
没有方向看不清楚在徘徊
我知道我一定
走不开
漫长的路寂寞的夜
在心里面哭泣的夜
你明白吗
只想在你的身边
我没有勇气没有力气
真的无法离你而去
你明白吗
只想在你的身边
漫长的路寂寞的夜
在心里面哭泣的夜
你明白吗
只想在你的身边
我没有勇气没有力气
真的无法离你而去
你明白吗
只想在你的身边
你的身边说爱你
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Replace it, brace it, face it
Finally it has been confirmed. After 6 mths of bloodshed n tears... hahaha... no, i am just kidding.. no tears and no bloodshed of cos. what i can really say is, time flies! its been 6 mths aldy n i am still quite ok, its been the longest i've ever stayed in 1 job, not bad huh?
Not having the best of luck or mood recently, what's gone wrong man? But i do know, whatever it is, no matter how bad it can be, everything and anything, will pass. don't dwell too much over it, reflect upon it, learn the lesson n move on.
Remember, It Will Pass. And when it did, you will only become stronger.
Another song from J.Mraz. Really love the optimistic nature of his songs, simply the best:
Details in the Fabric
Jason Mraz
Calm down
Deep breaths
And get yourself dressed instead
Of running around
And pulling all your threads and
Breaking yourself up
If it's a broken part, replace it
But, if it's a broken arm then brace it
If it's a broken heart then face it
And hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
Hold your own
Know your own name
And go your own way
And everything will be fine
Everything will be fine
mmmhmm
Hang on
Help is on the way
Stay strong
I'm doing everything
Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
And everything, everything will be fine
Everything
Are the details in the fabric
Are the things that make you panic
Are your thoughts results of static cling?
Are the things that make you blow
Hell, no reason, go on and scream
If you're shocked it's just the fault
Of faulty manufacturing.
Yeah everything will be fine
Everything in no time at all
Everything
Hold your own
And know your name
And go your own way
Are the details in the fabric (Hold your own, know your name)
Are the things that make you panic
Are your thoughts results of static cling? (Go your own way)
Are the details in the fabric (Hold your own, know your name)
Are the things that make you panic (Go your own way)
Is it Mother Nature's sewing machine?
Are the things that make you blow (Hold your own, know your name)
Hell no reason go on and scream
If you’re shocked it's just the fault (Go your own way)
Of faulty manufacturing
Everything will be fine
Everything in no time at all
Hearts will hold
For those who r feeling despair, disappointed, demoralized or too overly stressed out. =)
Not having the best of luck or mood recently, what's gone wrong man? But i do know, whatever it is, no matter how bad it can be, everything and anything, will pass. don't dwell too much over it, reflect upon it, learn the lesson n move on.
Remember, It Will Pass. And when it did, you will only become stronger.
Another song from J.Mraz. Really love the optimistic nature of his songs, simply the best:
Details in the Fabric
Jason Mraz
Calm down
Deep breaths
And get yourself dressed instead
Of running around
And pulling all your threads and
Breaking yourself up
If it's a broken part, replace it
But, if it's a broken arm then brace it
If it's a broken heart then face it
And hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
Hold your own
Know your own name
And go your own way
And everything will be fine
Everything will be fine
mmmhmm
Hang on
Help is on the way
Stay strong
I'm doing everything
Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
And everything, everything will be fine
Everything
Are the details in the fabric
Are the things that make you panic
Are your thoughts results of static cling?
Are the things that make you blow
Hell, no reason, go on and scream
If you're shocked it's just the fault
Of faulty manufacturing.
Yeah everything will be fine
Everything in no time at all
Everything
Hold your own
And know your name
And go your own way
Are the details in the fabric (Hold your own, know your name)
Are the things that make you panic
Are your thoughts results of static cling? (Go your own way)
Are the details in the fabric (Hold your own, know your name)
Are the things that make you panic (Go your own way)
Is it Mother Nature's sewing machine?
Are the things that make you blow (Hold your own, know your name)
Hell no reason go on and scream
If you’re shocked it's just the fault (Go your own way)
Of faulty manufacturing
Everything will be fine
Everything in no time at all
Hearts will hold
For those who r feeling despair, disappointed, demoralized or too overly stressed out. =)
Saturday, August 9, 2008
43 already...
She is 43 years old. Middle age for a lady but definitely young for a country.
I can still recall when i was a kid, the national day is always a day i am looking forward to. I tot it was a day the nation should come together and celebrate its achievements. The family would fly the flag out in the early Aug n so do many other families n u can see many sg flags flying ard during tat special period. I feel proud to be called a sporean.
However, things changed. this year you can hardly see a block of flat with a sea of flags.. there are not much of the so-called national day atmosphere n the ppl in sg are looming in unhappiness of the inflation, no increase of salaries and numerous fare hike. Yes, i think many are unhappy n yes, my family wouldn't even bother about the flag. we havent been flying the flag for at least 5 years now n all i ever thought of everyday is how to get out of this country.
Sad isn't it? every morn when i make my way to the bus stop, i could hear the pri sch playing the national anthem n rehearsing themselves for the ndp performance. i can recall the passion n loyalty i had when i was younger. having attended the actual NDP for 3 times and numerous times of previews and reheasals, i really liked being part of the big parade back then. it is a country i am talking about, i realised i still love singapore but y am i hating it? Don't get me wrong, i love this country but tat doesnt mean i cannot whine over it.. i support this country doesnt mean i support all the policies tat were passed. it is a country that all sporeans built together n no party n of cos not a single person can hold on to tat credit and claim everything in sg shld run the way they/he want it to be ran.
Sg is a country, don't run it like a freaking corporation. although it aldy is... n we all are just merely employees that reports to particular management who took our $$ away and make investments. success and the credit is theirs, failed n the money that was ours is not ours anymore.
SG has become a paradise for the rich and not a good place for the middle class n the poor. N we can only continue to be eaten n bullied till....... maybe eternity???
Happy Birthday Singapore.
I can still recall when i was a kid, the national day is always a day i am looking forward to. I tot it was a day the nation should come together and celebrate its achievements. The family would fly the flag out in the early Aug n so do many other families n u can see many sg flags flying ard during tat special period. I feel proud to be called a sporean.
However, things changed. this year you can hardly see a block of flat with a sea of flags.. there are not much of the so-called national day atmosphere n the ppl in sg are looming in unhappiness of the inflation, no increase of salaries and numerous fare hike. Yes, i think many are unhappy n yes, my family wouldn't even bother about the flag. we havent been flying the flag for at least 5 years now n all i ever thought of everyday is how to get out of this country.
Sad isn't it? every morn when i make my way to the bus stop, i could hear the pri sch playing the national anthem n rehearsing themselves for the ndp performance. i can recall the passion n loyalty i had when i was younger. having attended the actual NDP for 3 times and numerous times of previews and reheasals, i really liked being part of the big parade back then. it is a country i am talking about, i realised i still love singapore but y am i hating it? Don't get me wrong, i love this country but tat doesnt mean i cannot whine over it.. i support this country doesnt mean i support all the policies tat were passed. it is a country that all sporeans built together n no party n of cos not a single person can hold on to tat credit and claim everything in sg shld run the way they/he want it to be ran.
Sg is a country, don't run it like a freaking corporation. although it aldy is... n we all are just merely employees that reports to particular management who took our $$ away and make investments. success and the credit is theirs, failed n the money that was ours is not ours anymore.
SG has become a paradise for the rich and not a good place for the middle class n the poor. N we can only continue to be eaten n bullied till....... maybe eternity???
Happy Birthday Singapore.
Monday, August 4, 2008
26.
It is a number that doesn't matter in my life until today. It is a number that marks the beginning of what i consider, old. and i know, life will be a little bit different starting from now on. i am now into the real adult working world. i feel tired of many things in life that i used to care so much about. i am getting old and my body starts to make some noises aldy.
I wanna thank frenz who still remember this day of mine. even for those whom i havent been contacting for quite awhile. u havent forgotten me, thank god! i am so sorry i havent been keeping in touch much, as i've become hmmm... how should i say... a little bit too tired of everything. maybe sometimes i rather be alone? i'm so sorry my dear frenz... though i may not have been contacting you all constantly, i still keep u all in my heart some how... somewhere, somehow, there is a place for everyone who walked into my life b4.
Thanks my dear frenz for the gifts, cards, jellies and well wishes... esp the ipod touch which i'm still struggling with. thanks for the treat from colleagues n the beer cake card.. haha... Thanks!
It really is a quiet bday which i didnt get a single cake or a birthday song! This i certainly wont mind, i am slowly working towards not celebrating my bday at all... i am not going to treat it like it is any special day or what.. but it is certainly a day that makes me realise that i still stay in the heart of many frenz ard me, and that alone is more than enough.
I wanna thank frenz who still remember this day of mine. even for those whom i havent been contacting for quite awhile. u havent forgotten me, thank god! i am so sorry i havent been keeping in touch much, as i've become hmmm... how should i say... a little bit too tired of everything. maybe sometimes i rather be alone? i'm so sorry my dear frenz... though i may not have been contacting you all constantly, i still keep u all in my heart some how... somewhere, somehow, there is a place for everyone who walked into my life b4.
Thanks my dear frenz for the gifts, cards, jellies and well wishes... esp the ipod touch which i'm still struggling with. thanks for the treat from colleagues n the beer cake card.. haha... Thanks!
It really is a quiet bday which i didnt get a single cake or a birthday song! This i certainly wont mind, i am slowly working towards not celebrating my bday at all... i am not going to treat it like it is any special day or what.. but it is certainly a day that makes me realise that i still stay in the heart of many frenz ard me, and that alone is more than enough.
Sunday, August 3, 2008
I am back! AGAIN!
Haha... i havent been updating this blog for quite awhile again! really, i dun see y would i have anything interesting to write about. life is pretty much BORING. work is boring, really. n i dun wan to keep whining on my blog, which is something i've been doing a lot recently.
Feeling kinda tired as usual. As everyone noes the month of aug is usually quite a hectic 1 for me... n maybe over so many years, i have really changed quite a lot.
Anyway, tat aside. So far i am ok. been thru my convo, which is something i am not very looking forward to actually. hahaha... ya, its very impt though. cos it marks the end of my HELL! hope i wont get to experience tat kind of feeing that u r a 2nd class (or even 3rd class) citizen of a freaking sch. yes, to tell the truth, i actually hated my uni life quite a lot.. 3 1/2 years. ok, 3 years actually cos my last sem is thankfully spent in a much better place with much much more better ppl. No, Diane, Serene and Ziwei n of cos some other better frenz in the sch, u all are great. i just meant some others who are not that great ppl, i dun blame them as well, maybe we are just different breeds of ppl thats all.
On to work. Work is OK, boring but OK. i am still learning actually, there are some obstacles i met and i am still trying to overcome them. n i guess only thru experience and setbacks that i can grow n become better. its ok, i noe i will get there!
Thanks everyone for the flowers, the cute forever friends bear and the cert! =)
Feeling kinda tired as usual. As everyone noes the month of aug is usually quite a hectic 1 for me... n maybe over so many years, i have really changed quite a lot.
Anyway, tat aside. So far i am ok. been thru my convo, which is something i am not very looking forward to actually. hahaha... ya, its very impt though. cos it marks the end of my HELL! hope i wont get to experience tat kind of feeing that u r a 2nd class (or even 3rd class) citizen of a freaking sch. yes, to tell the truth, i actually hated my uni life quite a lot.. 3 1/2 years. ok, 3 years actually cos my last sem is thankfully spent in a much better place with much much more better ppl. No, Diane, Serene and Ziwei n of cos some other better frenz in the sch, u all are great. i just meant some others who are not that great ppl, i dun blame them as well, maybe we are just different breeds of ppl thats all.
On to work. Work is OK, boring but OK. i am still learning actually, there are some obstacles i met and i am still trying to overcome them. n i guess only thru experience and setbacks that i can grow n become better. its ok, i noe i will get there!
Thanks everyone for the flowers, the cute forever friends bear and the cert! =)
Sunday, July 20, 2008
Why oh why? why am i so easily misunderstood? why am i always the villian? what is it that what is supposingly my care and concern from the heart turned out to be something negative, something bad? am i really so bad at expressing myself?
I've grown tired of all these shit. i shall not give a fucking care about all these anymore... perhaps they r rite, i shld b gotten rid of in one's life. whatever... i am so frustrated now! hai... i just have to let it all out!!! damn it damn it damn it!!! ROARRRRR!!
Oh no man, i better keep a watch on my temper n my blood pressure. argh!
I've grown tired of all these shit. i shall not give a fucking care about all these anymore... perhaps they r rite, i shld b gotten rid of in one's life. whatever... i am so frustrated now! hai... i just have to let it all out!!! damn it damn it damn it!!! ROARRRRR!!
Oh no man, i better keep a watch on my temper n my blood pressure. argh!
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
1 year already!!!
OMG! I didn't realise! today is exactly 1 yr since the day i left for Shanghai! oh my... i can still remember very vividly how i felt on tat very day. what are all the rubbish i had to went thru b4 i embark on my 6 months stint. And now? my very own sister is leaving for Vietnam tml for a few months b4 she will be stationed there for 2 yrs. haha.. what's up with July man?
I sometimes still think back on those days spent in China. it still feels like a dream... so perfect.. no wait, nothing is perfect cos i encountered shit there as well. its just so different and memorable. definitely something i will remember for LIFE! i noe it will nv happen again... at least not as fun and enjoying. afterall, youth only happen once in a damn life time!
Now i've been thinking, when can i go on a trip again? n i just got back from taiwan only! hahah... sg is so freaking small n boring i just need to get out once in a while.
Well, but of cos i am still stuck here, working, slping, playing game, having lunch n dinner n breakfast whatever... life is just so same, old, mundane, me.
[你才刚走进我生命, 我却想要离开]
I sometimes still think back on those days spent in China. it still feels like a dream... so perfect.. no wait, nothing is perfect cos i encountered shit there as well. its just so different and memorable. definitely something i will remember for LIFE! i noe it will nv happen again... at least not as fun and enjoying. afterall, youth only happen once in a damn life time!
Now i've been thinking, when can i go on a trip again? n i just got back from taiwan only! hahah... sg is so freaking small n boring i just need to get out once in a while.
Well, but of cos i am still stuck here, working, slping, playing game, having lunch n dinner n breakfast whatever... life is just so same, old, mundane, me.
[你才刚走进我生命, 我却想要离开]
Sunday, June 29, 2008
Going back...
Work recently is getting kinda crazy... lots of stuff happened.. things got delayed n didnt really went on quite well. least to mention, there r certain happenings in my life as well. life back as its old self? not quite. this time, i am sure i can keep everything under control.
Its back to work tml... really dragging it! omg, y cant i just have a peace of mind?? some ppl can just be like a curse! anyway, good thing is i am haing 4-day week coming week n the week after!!! hahaha... my co. is having shutdown for a day n following week i am taking a day off to go back to ntu n settle some admin stuff.
aye, its been awhile since i went back... afterall, memories still linger there. like it or not, the life spent in ntu albiet tough but its still very memorable and significant.
i wont change anything.
Its back to work tml... really dragging it! omg, y cant i just have a peace of mind?? some ppl can just be like a curse! anyway, good thing is i am haing 4-day week coming week n the week after!!! hahaha... my co. is having shutdown for a day n following week i am taking a day off to go back to ntu n settle some admin stuff.
aye, its been awhile since i went back... afterall, memories still linger there. like it or not, the life spent in ntu albiet tough but its still very memorable and significant.
i wont change anything.
Nothing I have is truly mine?
I haven't really ever found a place that I call home
I never stick around quite long enough to make it
I apologize that once again I'm not in love
But it's not as if I mind
that your heart ain't exactly breaking
It's just a thought, only a thought
But if my life is for rent and I don't lean to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine
I've always thought
that I would love to live by the sea
To travel the world alone
and live my life more simply
I have no idea what's happened to that dream
Cos there's really nothing left here to stop me
It's just a thought, only a thought
But if my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine
While my heart is a shield and I won't let it down
While I am so afraid to fail so I won't even try
Well how can I say I'm alive
-- Life for Rent by Dido
When can i taste the real flavor of freedom?
Or maybe, you might wanna be there to tie me up?
In my mind i noe, i am sinking in into further depths...
And maybe, this is my destiny, to remain foolish.
So its time, its time for me to go again...
I never stick around quite long enough to make it
I apologize that once again I'm not in love
But it's not as if I mind
that your heart ain't exactly breaking
It's just a thought, only a thought
But if my life is for rent and I don't lean to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine
I've always thought
that I would love to live by the sea
To travel the world alone
and live my life more simply
I have no idea what's happened to that dream
Cos there's really nothing left here to stop me
It's just a thought, only a thought
But if my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine
While my heart is a shield and I won't let it down
While I am so afraid to fail so I won't even try
Well how can I say I'm alive
-- Life for Rent by Dido
When can i taste the real flavor of freedom?
Or maybe, you might wanna be there to tie me up?
In my mind i noe, i am sinking in into further depths...
And maybe, this is my destiny, to remain foolish.
So its time, its time for me to go again...
Monday, June 16, 2008
Trying to get it down...
Great, my bro brought his xbox 360 over during the weekend n i am pratically addicted to GTA IV! Just cant stop playing it! Hahahaha... but i guess playing too much game isn't a good thing ya.. so much time wasted n time seems to pass exceptionally fast while doing so..
Need to do some shopping, need to see some exhibition, need to do some chilling and relaxing.. need to do some soul searching... wat i fear has finally happened, the heart of the matter it indeed is. i dunnoe wat will the final outcome be.. *shrug
The Heart of the Matter by India Arie
Need to do some shopping, need to see some exhibition, need to do some chilling and relaxing.. need to do some soul searching... wat i fear has finally happened, the heart of the matter it indeed is. i dunnoe wat will the final outcome be.. *shrug
The Heart of the Matter by India Arie
Sunday, June 15, 2008
The Event for June & July
MONTH OF PHOTOGRAPHY
Still/Moving: Photography & Cinema
Month of Photography (MoP), the annual Singapore-based photography festival, returns in 2008 with the theme of ‘Still/Moving: Photography & Cinema’. Comprising several exhibitions and talks, the festival explores the relationship between two art forms which share a common heritage and history: photography and cinema and looks into questions concerning the cinematic and the photographic. What are the convergences and divergences between photography and cinema? When and where do they come together and when and where do they separate?
In its sixth year, the Month of Photography 2008 will be on from 13 June to 20 July and features several exhibitions in various venues. Each of these exhibitions addresses the theme through different genres of photography with exhibits of classic to conceptual and experimental photographs. The festival also features a series of workshops, talks and lectures led by artists and photographers.
http://www.mopasia.com.sg/mop-exhibitions.shtml
Interesting... might wanna pop by a few of the exhibitions if time permits. others interested can let me noe, we can go together!
Still/Moving: Photography & Cinema
Month of Photography (MoP), the annual Singapore-based photography festival, returns in 2008 with the theme of ‘Still/Moving: Photography & Cinema’. Comprising several exhibitions and talks, the festival explores the relationship between two art forms which share a common heritage and history: photography and cinema and looks into questions concerning the cinematic and the photographic. What are the convergences and divergences between photography and cinema? When and where do they come together and when and where do they separate?
In its sixth year, the Month of Photography 2008 will be on from 13 June to 20 July and features several exhibitions in various venues. Each of these exhibitions addresses the theme through different genres of photography with exhibits of classic to conceptual and experimental photographs. The festival also features a series of workshops, talks and lectures led by artists and photographers.
http://www.mopasia.com.sg/mop-exhibitions.shtml
Interesting... might wanna pop by a few of the exhibitions if time permits. others interested can let me noe, we can go together!
Sunday, June 8, 2008
最近又想了很多, 该怎么办?
心里不喜欢那种复杂的心情, 于是我又尝试了
我不知道为什么, 可能是一种冲动, 可能我只想以平常心看待
而我明白了, 有些事是不能抹去的
心中的感动可能还在, 就像从前一样
就再那么一次, 我想我已足够了
人生有很多事都需要做选择
大的, 小的
很多选择都是两难
两手衡量着对与错, 好与坏
怎么样才能找到真正的, 真正的, 真正的....
两难...
兩難
誰將你眼眶
染成一末紅
誰用模糊語言輕易帶過承諾
幾度夢裡尋覓
踏遍多少愁
敢問玄月缺少了什麼
* * *
少了那一夜短暫煙火
只能懷念煞那閃爍
少了那一次流星划落
只能將心意淡沒
* * *
我說去亦難留亦難怎麼辦
有些話只能偷偷拿出來紀念遺憾
我說愛亦難恨亦難分作兩半
有些人注定和寂寞相伴
有些人注定只能作伴
ah' nee
心里不喜欢那种复杂的心情, 于是我又尝试了
我不知道为什么, 可能是一种冲动, 可能我只想以平常心看待
而我明白了, 有些事是不能抹去的
心中的感动可能还在, 就像从前一样
就再那么一次, 我想我已足够了
人生有很多事都需要做选择
大的, 小的
很多选择都是两难
两手衡量着对与错, 好与坏
怎么样才能找到真正的, 真正的, 真正的....
两难...
兩難
誰將你眼眶
染成一末紅
誰用模糊語言輕易帶過承諾
幾度夢裡尋覓
踏遍多少愁
敢問玄月缺少了什麼
* * *
少了那一夜短暫煙火
只能懷念煞那閃爍
少了那一次流星划落
只能將心意淡沒
* * *
我說去亦難留亦難怎麼辦
有些話只能偷偷拿出來紀念遺憾
我說愛亦難恨亦難分作兩半
有些人注定和寂寞相伴
有些人注定只能作伴
ah' nee
Sunday, June 1, 2008
Photos of TW - Part 1
As promised, here are some photos of TW. There are simply too many to be uploaded.. so its better to go to my facebook to see those uploaded by others OR go to my multiply to see those i have taken (mostly scenery though)
Approaching sunset @ 淡水
一个好
还是两个在一起的好?
Went to 小巨蛋 to withness the swearing in of TW's KMT President Ma Ying Jeou
Lots n lots n lots of policemen n the roads n pavement ard the stadium r off access
Here comes President Ma!! I can hear ppl saying how handsome he is though they can only see his back.
Leo de Mister Donut !
Nanjing Xi Lu in TW!!!
Nanjing dong Lu in Tw. Nothing like the 1 in Shanghai. hahaha
A bell of love inside the MRT station???
Approaching sunset @ 淡水
一个好
还是两个在一起的好? Went to 小巨蛋 to withness the swearing in of TW's KMT President Ma Ying JeouLots n lots n lots of policemen n the roads n pavement ard the stadium r off accesseven the little kids took time off frm sch to witness the event. TW love their new president.
Here comes President Ma!! I can hear ppl saying how handsome he is though they can only see his back.
Leo de Mister Donut !
Nanjing Xi Lu in TW!!!
Nanjing dong Lu in Tw. Nothing like the 1 in Shanghai. hahahaTuesday, May 27, 2008
Taiwan 18/05 - 26/05
Finally I'm backkkk! woah... 8 days in taiwan passby too fast and i need to get back to work today aldy. having super tuesday blues n feeling super tired cos got serious lack of slp.
So hows the trip? well, what can i say... it is certainly a valuable 1 n it allowed me to do something i long to do. can be considered as a wish fulfilled.
Did bought quite a lot of things... clothes, shoes, food, souvenirs.. haha.. n of cos spent quite a lot of $$ on eating as well la. however, didn't hav much time to tour ard cos the ever friendly taiwan frenz kept showing us the things that we like the most, eat n shop!!! haha..
Maybe when i hav the mood n time, i will post some photos online. many photos r very, very, very precious 1 ok.. got $$ also cannot buy 1 ok.. hahaha..
要感谢 娃仔差不多每一天都带我们到处逛到很晚才回家, 还熬出病来了, 害你没能跟我们在24号晚上一起大喊大叫! 真的非常感激, 让我们都很不好意思了啦... 要早日康复哦
还有 Bozheng & 小诗& Yurui & 全部志同道合的朋友! 你们都对我们太好了, 台湾的朋友万岁!!
还有 Sharon & Cindy 帮大家 organise这个行程, 我知道很不简单.
还有 Chee Hong 的最后一顿免费午餐!
当然, 最后要谢的就是我们的女神 + 猴子 + 猪头 的小妮子. 让我无比感动, 你真的太棒了! 原来这就是真正的你, 很无理头, 很没形象, 很有主见, 没有价子, 不爱钱, 不爱名利; 就放胆去做你爱做的事吧!
其实应该和你多说几句的, 但突然愣住了, 说不出话, 可能再也没机会了吧, 你离去的背影, 我永远都会记得的.
那么小的肩膀, 怎么会让人感觉如此有力量?
So hows the trip? well, what can i say... it is certainly a valuable 1 n it allowed me to do something i long to do. can be considered as a wish fulfilled.
Did bought quite a lot of things... clothes, shoes, food, souvenirs.. haha.. n of cos spent quite a lot of $$ on eating as well la. however, didn't hav much time to tour ard cos the ever friendly taiwan frenz kept showing us the things that we like the most, eat n shop!!! haha..
Maybe when i hav the mood n time, i will post some photos online. many photos r very, very, very precious 1 ok.. got $$ also cannot buy 1 ok.. hahaha..
要感谢 娃仔差不多每一天都带我们到处逛到很晚才回家, 还熬出病来了, 害你没能跟我们在24号晚上一起大喊大叫! 真的非常感激, 让我们都很不好意思了啦... 要早日康复哦
还有 Bozheng & 小诗& Yurui & 全部志同道合的朋友! 你们都对我们太好了, 台湾的朋友万岁!!
还有 Sharon & Cindy 帮大家 organise这个行程, 我知道很不简单.
还有 Chee Hong 的最后一顿免费午餐!
当然, 最后要谢的就是我们的女神 + 猴子 + 猪头 的小妮子. 让我无比感动, 你真的太棒了! 原来这就是真正的你, 很无理头, 很没形象, 很有主见, 没有价子, 不爱钱, 不爱名利; 就放胆去做你爱做的事吧!
其实应该和你多说几句的, 但突然愣住了, 说不出话, 可能再也没机会了吧, 你离去的背影, 我永远都会记得的.
那么小的肩膀, 怎么会让人感觉如此有力量?
Thursday, May 15, 2008
Certs n MORE certs
So how many certificates do NTU wants to send me?
Made Carmen went down to collect my degree cert frm Student Service... then i received a call yesterday informing that the cert i had collected did not include my GIP accomplishment inside so asked me down to exchange with the new one. That is weird enff, cos last i noe, i tot my final degree cert is only going to include the name of my degree, date i graduated n wat class of honours... but oh well... Fine.
Received another call today. From the Career Attachment Office, informing me that my GIP Accomplishment cert is ready for collection. Now that is confusing.. is this the same cert as my degree cert? i enquired further n she told me its a different one. n didnt i aldy got a GIP cert frm the GIP office aldy (courtesy from CArmen again)? is that the same cert? "No" came the reply... Fine. i hav to go down to collect that cert n exchange me degree cert.
So confusing!
And oh ya, in foul mood... hai.. demoralizing man.. i am not going to say why here cos 1. i am lazy. 2. i dun wan to push my blood pressure up again. 3. i dun wan to repeat it for the 23rd time. hahaha...
n i am going to TW soon.. this sun.. n there r still so many unsettled stuff. so TIRING!!!
Made Carmen went down to collect my degree cert frm Student Service... then i received a call yesterday informing that the cert i had collected did not include my GIP accomplishment inside so asked me down to exchange with the new one. That is weird enff, cos last i noe, i tot my final degree cert is only going to include the name of my degree, date i graduated n wat class of honours... but oh well... Fine.
Received another call today. From the Career Attachment Office, informing me that my GIP Accomplishment cert is ready for collection. Now that is confusing.. is this the same cert as my degree cert? i enquired further n she told me its a different one. n didnt i aldy got a GIP cert frm the GIP office aldy (courtesy from CArmen again)? is that the same cert? "No" came the reply... Fine. i hav to go down to collect that cert n exchange me degree cert.
So confusing!
And oh ya, in foul mood... hai.. demoralizing man.. i am not going to say why here cos 1. i am lazy. 2. i dun wan to push my blood pressure up again. 3. i dun wan to repeat it for the 23rd time. hahaha...
n i am going to TW soon.. this sun.. n there r still so many unsettled stuff. so TIRING!!!
Sunday, May 11, 2008
I am beginning to think, there are no such thing as "fairness" in this world. Why believe in karma? belive in reap what u sow? recent events have proved to overturn all those beliefs. does being a supposingly "good person" really works? what did u get in the end?
Maybe i am just too tired to be so goodie two shoes anymore.. beginning to be a little unfeeling, a little more indecisive, a little more laZy. after all tat had happened, i am also a little scared, a little unsure... gosh, what i've become??? is this wat i am deserve of?
I need some motivation in my life to keep me strong n going. to have the will and egarness to venture out and experience new things again. i cannot b stuck here n b content of my boring life. Li Jianghan, wake up!!!
--- just some random babbling.. maybe it doesnt really mean anything....
上了瘾的毒品, 以为给戒掉了. 但一旦把它摆在我面前, 我又欲罢不能了...
Maybe i am just too tired to be so goodie two shoes anymore.. beginning to be a little unfeeling, a little more indecisive, a little more laZy. after all tat had happened, i am also a little scared, a little unsure... gosh, what i've become??? is this wat i am deserve of?
I need some motivation in my life to keep me strong n going. to have the will and egarness to venture out and experience new things again. i cannot b stuck here n b content of my boring life. Li Jianghan, wake up!!!
--- just some random babbling.. maybe it doesnt really mean anything....
上了瘾的毒品, 以为给戒掉了. 但一旦把它摆在我面前, 我又欲罢不能了...
Friday, May 9, 2008
influxation in progress... sporeans, get ur bags ready
Haven't been updating this blog for quite awhile, main reason is that there are nothing much that i can say or rather, nt much tat i wish to say.
i am sick of sharing too much of my life cos its really no big deal. been thru some deep thinking recently, n it kinda put me down a little bit... but life still goes on ya? though its really a mundane n meaningless life...
Anyway, came across an article today... gosh, i had the shock of my life:
Singapore's Unloved Chinese Labor Boom
Shu-Ching Jean Chen, 05.08.08, 10:29 AM ET
http://www.forbes.com/markets/2008/05/08/singapore-chinese-immigration-markets-econ-cx_jc_0508markets04.html
HONG KONG - Low-skilled workers from China are ubiquitous in Singapore these days: in the shiny new terminal of Changi Airport, in coffee shops, in shopping malls, in supermarkets, at gas stations, at construction sites and populating the much-loved open-air food courts called hawker centers.
They also make their presence felt in five-star hotels, where one recent encounter found a Mandarin-speaking maid who could not comprehend a word of English. Most recently, Singapore's two bus companies began hiring drivers from China.
Chinese workers are just one constituency in Singapore's fast-growing foreign population, but they are the largest component of an expatriate contingent that crossed the 1 million mark in October, helping boost the overall population to 4.68 million in an otherwise chronically aging society. Foreigners make up about one-third of the national workforce. The country set a goal to raise its population total to 6.5 million within two decades, rejuvenating itself mainly through immigration from India and China.
But the sudden influx of workers from China appears to have taken ordinary Singaporeans by surprise, as the low-skilled and the elderly start to find themselves losing jobs to the newcomers. The tidal wave of mainland Chinese workers began last year, when Singapore relaxed its rules to allow more immigration to staff its service industries, part of its measures to address an acute labor shortage resulting from a boom in the construction, marine, manufacturing and services sectors. Beginning this year, Singaporean companies were allowed to draw on foreigners for up to 50% of their labor force; 10% can be Chinese nationals. Previously, the respective figures were 45% and 5%.
The government last year reckoned 450,000 jobs will be created in the next five years; the country's annual birth rate is only 30,000.
As Chinese workers with distinct and varied provincial accents proliferate, so do natives' complaints about their loudness and lack of mastery of English. Their popularity with the city-state's employers, who like their work ethic and low wage expectations, further fuels resentment.
They threaten the job security of Singapore's most unskilled, the low-wage workers who earn less than 1,200 Singapore dollars ($872.73) a month, numbering about 350,000. "There are so many of them everywhere, the mainland Chinese," a taxi driver lamented. "They take away our jobs and force poor people to go unemployed."
This month, Prime Minister Lee Hsien Loong tried to place the issue in context, arguing that the majority of Singaporeans have benefited from rising household incomes, a boon stemming from the country's historically low unemployment rate. This follows four consecutive years of strong economic growth.
But labor activists view things differently. The Workers' Party pointed out that Singaporeans are being left behind by the recent boom: more than 60% of the record 236,600 new jobs created last year went to foreigners.
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What the hell, this is getting crazy! everywhere we go nowadays they are foreign ppl all ard us! filipino, chinese, malaysian, burmese, indians..... i am feeling insecure n unsafe sometimes... during May day holiday i went to geylang with the gip peeps.. OMG! the whole geylang feels like freaking CHINA! there r so many foreigners ard i dun feel like i'm in SG anymore. n we got on that bus, i think we were the only sporeans on it!!!
Why?? i feel like this place is not my country anymore, it has been overrun by ppl i am not familar with. this is scary... the thought of moving to somewhere else has nv been this strong b4...
i am sick of sharing too much of my life cos its really no big deal. been thru some deep thinking recently, n it kinda put me down a little bit... but life still goes on ya? though its really a mundane n meaningless life...
Anyway, came across an article today... gosh, i had the shock of my life:
Singapore's Unloved Chinese Labor Boom
Shu-Ching Jean Chen, 05.08.08, 10:29 AM ET
http://www.forbes.com/markets/2008/05/08/singapore-chinese-immigration-markets-econ-cx_jc_0508markets04.html
HONG KONG - Low-skilled workers from China are ubiquitous in Singapore these days: in the shiny new terminal of Changi Airport, in coffee shops, in shopping malls, in supermarkets, at gas stations, at construction sites and populating the much-loved open-air food courts called hawker centers.
They also make their presence felt in five-star hotels, where one recent encounter found a Mandarin-speaking maid who could not comprehend a word of English. Most recently, Singapore's two bus companies began hiring drivers from China.
Chinese workers are just one constituency in Singapore's fast-growing foreign population, but they are the largest component of an expatriate contingent that crossed the 1 million mark in October, helping boost the overall population to 4.68 million in an otherwise chronically aging society. Foreigners make up about one-third of the national workforce. The country set a goal to raise its population total to 6.5 million within two decades, rejuvenating itself mainly through immigration from India and China.
But the sudden influx of workers from China appears to have taken ordinary Singaporeans by surprise, as the low-skilled and the elderly start to find themselves losing jobs to the newcomers. The tidal wave of mainland Chinese workers began last year, when Singapore relaxed its rules to allow more immigration to staff its service industries, part of its measures to address an acute labor shortage resulting from a boom in the construction, marine, manufacturing and services sectors. Beginning this year, Singaporean companies were allowed to draw on foreigners for up to 50% of their labor force; 10% can be Chinese nationals. Previously, the respective figures were 45% and 5%.
The government last year reckoned 450,000 jobs will be created in the next five years; the country's annual birth rate is only 30,000.
As Chinese workers with distinct and varied provincial accents proliferate, so do natives' complaints about their loudness and lack of mastery of English. Their popularity with the city-state's employers, who like their work ethic and low wage expectations, further fuels resentment.
They threaten the job security of Singapore's most unskilled, the low-wage workers who earn less than 1,200 Singapore dollars ($872.73) a month, numbering about 350,000. "There are so many of them everywhere, the mainland Chinese," a taxi driver lamented. "They take away our jobs and force poor people to go unemployed."
This month, Prime Minister Lee Hsien Loong tried to place the issue in context, arguing that the majority of Singaporeans have benefited from rising household incomes, a boon stemming from the country's historically low unemployment rate. This follows four consecutive years of strong economic growth.
But labor activists view things differently. The Workers' Party pointed out that Singaporeans are being left behind by the recent boom: more than 60% of the record 236,600 new jobs created last year went to foreigners.
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What the hell, this is getting crazy! everywhere we go nowadays they are foreign ppl all ard us! filipino, chinese, malaysian, burmese, indians..... i am feeling insecure n unsafe sometimes... during May day holiday i went to geylang with the gip peeps.. OMG! the whole geylang feels like freaking CHINA! there r so many foreigners ard i dun feel like i'm in SG anymore. n we got on that bus, i think we were the only sporeans on it!!!
Why?? i feel like this place is not my country anymore, it has been overrun by ppl i am not familar with. this is scary... the thought of moving to somewhere else has nv been this strong b4...
Thursday, May 1, 2008
You know sometimes its good to get a bit emotional. i havent had that feeling for quite awhile already. suddenly missing that kind of feelings after bumping into an old song on radio.
Oh... those were the days... well, since its already wrong, so let it be wrong ba. i think its better this way.
要幸福哦...
Oh... those were the days... well, since its already wrong, so let it be wrong ba. i think its better this way.
要幸福哦...
Saturday, April 26, 2008
my 2 Singapore cents
I never like to talk about politics, esp 1 that has to do with our own little island call Singapore. It is like talking abt things that we r totally helpless about, n that contribute to how ignorant we all are. But recently, seeing how ppl on the internet r responding to a certain fiasco, the sheer number of it, drove me to write something about it.
Yes, we are. From young, we were being educated that way, to follow and never to lead. those who can be different would have aldy ventured out of sg n out of this "hell hole". it is a saddening sight.. but its the truth. we all are a bunch of ignorant ppl who deserved whatever hikes we r being thrown at. we only care about our own rice bowl n fear of reprimand and losing our jobs etc.
As 1 joker wrote on the net which is actually very, very true:
"Actually I think majority of the people wants Wong Kam Seng to resign and better still if he is sacked.
The real reason is not not totally because of the Mas Selamat fiasco but mostly because the majority of us are PISSED with the Government for many other reasons:
1) high cost of food and public transport(MRT,taxis, buses...etc)
2) high cost of petrol (allowing oil companies to act as a cartel)
3) ERP gantries (Raymond Lim's persistent bull-**** justification)
4) Minister salaries (demand equal salaries with top private corporation earners but ZERO accountabilities)
5) Civil servants flouting their wealth (fat bonuses and pay)
6) Complacency of our Government (but accusing the public)
7) Cowardice of PAP MPs who dare not question policies financially affecting the lower & middle class citizens-fare hikes, Universities fee hikes, Utilities hike, food prices drastic increment,ERP gantries in HDB heartland,etc)"
"The recent open door policy to allow any T, D and H in which is perceived to crowd many Singaporeans out of their jobs, university places, housing, etc., is another sore point. In addition to the untimely 7% GST increase, inflation, ERP gantries in heartlands, high cost of inefficient public transport system, hefty increase in ministerial salaries, etc."
I guess these 2 jokers pointed out the crux of the problem, we had our last straw. Are all sporeans really foola?? we just stand there n take whatever that's being thrown to us and say that "it doesnt concern me" when whatever u earn, u hav to contribute to some form of hikes, taxes, fines etc. with FTs coming in, sg becomes more congested, pay becoming lower and the streets becoming unsafe. i can see Shanghai doing something to curb the problem of outsiders coming into their city, i don't see why sg is actually welcoming them with both arms. frankly, i was utterly shocked when i just came back frm SH n found out there r so many foreigners ard me. it scares me really.. like this place doesnt belong to me anymore.. all this happening in just 6mths!
Well, at least i can see there are still a very small minority of ppl who gave very constructive comments on this issue n signed the petition. There r actually still sporeans who love SG n voiced out their opinion when something went really wrong. Sporeans who not just care about their own well-being n pockets n started thinking n analyzing the whole situation.
I am not trying to say we should overthrow anything.. but it is a good sign that sporeans are slowly starting to make decisions for themselves whether what is right or wrong n we as humans, what basic respect we should have. who wants a country to be populated by 4 millions of blind followers that only think about themselves and fulfill their own interest only? Look at Taiwan, Hongkong, Korea and Japan. They are 1st world country no doubt and populated by citizens who really love their own country and not afraid to make a stand. this is what nationalistic is all about.
I am not trying to make a point here. and by writing on such a sensitive issue in SG on such a public space, i know what might b coming. but pls, allow me to contribute my 2 singapore cents about this ailing society.
Yes, we are. From young, we were being educated that way, to follow and never to lead. those who can be different would have aldy ventured out of sg n out of this "hell hole". it is a saddening sight.. but its the truth. we all are a bunch of ignorant ppl who deserved whatever hikes we r being thrown at. we only care about our own rice bowl n fear of reprimand and losing our jobs etc.
As 1 joker wrote on the net which is actually very, very true:
"Actually I think majority of the people wants Wong Kam Seng to resign and better still if he is sacked.
The real reason is not not totally because of the Mas Selamat fiasco but mostly because the majority of us are PISSED with the Government for many other reasons:
1) high cost of food and public transport(MRT,taxis, buses...etc)
2) high cost of petrol (allowing oil companies to act as a cartel)
3) ERP gantries (Raymond Lim's persistent bull-**** justification)
4) Minister salaries (demand equal salaries with top private corporation earners but ZERO accountabilities)
5) Civil servants flouting their wealth (fat bonuses and pay)
6) Complacency of our Government (but accusing the public)
7) Cowardice of PAP MPs who dare not question policies financially affecting the lower & middle class citizens-fare hikes, Universities fee hikes, Utilities hike, food prices drastic increment,ERP gantries in HDB heartland,etc)"
"The recent open door policy to allow any T, D and H in which is perceived to crowd many Singaporeans out of their jobs, university places, housing, etc., is another sore point. In addition to the untimely 7% GST increase, inflation, ERP gantries in heartlands, high cost of inefficient public transport system, hefty increase in ministerial salaries, etc."
I guess these 2 jokers pointed out the crux of the problem, we had our last straw. Are all sporeans really foola?? we just stand there n take whatever that's being thrown to us and say that "it doesnt concern me" when whatever u earn, u hav to contribute to some form of hikes, taxes, fines etc. with FTs coming in, sg becomes more congested, pay becoming lower and the streets becoming unsafe. i can see Shanghai doing something to curb the problem of outsiders coming into their city, i don't see why sg is actually welcoming them with both arms. frankly, i was utterly shocked when i just came back frm SH n found out there r so many foreigners ard me. it scares me really.. like this place doesnt belong to me anymore.. all this happening in just 6mths!
Well, at least i can see there are still a very small minority of ppl who gave very constructive comments on this issue n signed the petition. There r actually still sporeans who love SG n voiced out their opinion when something went really wrong. Sporeans who not just care about their own well-being n pockets n started thinking n analyzing the whole situation.
I am not trying to say we should overthrow anything.. but it is a good sign that sporeans are slowly starting to make decisions for themselves whether what is right or wrong n we as humans, what basic respect we should have. who wants a country to be populated by 4 millions of blind followers that only think about themselves and fulfill their own interest only? Look at Taiwan, Hongkong, Korea and Japan. They are 1st world country no doubt and populated by citizens who really love their own country and not afraid to make a stand. this is what nationalistic is all about.
I am not trying to make a point here. and by writing on such a sensitive issue in SG on such a public space, i know what might b coming. but pls, allow me to contribute my 2 singapore cents about this ailing society.
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Shut up you ppl, stop ur whining bcos its NOT going to change anything!!!
You are the one who voted them in, in the 1st place, so u got this! oh, btw, i voted them in too cos my place got bloody run over... erm.. i mean walk over...
So pls quit ur blabbing n move on! Let them enjoy their million dollar salaries while we enjoy the inflation, period.
You are the one who voted them in, in the 1st place, so u got this! oh, btw, i voted them in too cos my place got bloody run over... erm.. i mean walk over...
So pls quit ur blabbing n move on! Let them enjoy their million dollar salaries while we enjoy the inflation, period.
Sunday, April 20, 2008
过于熟悉的因果
Am reading an interesting book: The Alchemist by Paul Coelho.
It wasn't a new book and in fact, i have read it once a few years ago. however, i failed to comprehend what the book really meant back then. its abt destiny, dreams and exploring n going after one's dream.
I managed to try to read it one more time today n came across a very meaningful n interesting quote. 1 i am sure is applicable to everyone here, n more so for myself.
"When someone sees the same people every day, ...... they wind up becoming a part of that person's life. And then they want the person to change. If someone isn't what others want them to be, the others become angry. Everyone seems to have a clear idea of how other people should lead their lives, but none about his or her own." -- Paul Coelho, The Alchemist, pg. 16.
This quote actually reminds me of another concept which I've mentioned years ago in my old blog, one which i have quite forgotten until recently: Familiarity Breeds Contempt. It is an old, old concept of which it simple means: "the more you know something or someone, the more you start to find faults and dislike things about it or them."
Why Familiarity breeds Contempt
This article was published in an underground "zine" called Kosh Dude during 1994.
It seems strange that such a nice concept like familiarity would create such an unpleasant emotion like contempt. Getting to know a friend should deepen the relationship rather than strain it. Unfortunately there are many people who ruin friendships by becoming too possessive.
Most friendships start out innocently enough. Two people meet and find that they have common interests. This makes them want to find out more and more about each other. The problems begin when one person starts to tell the other how they should live and what they should do. Things get worse when that friend starts worrying too much about the other's actions and decisions. Because people resent it when others interfere with their personal business, arguments usually erupt. The bonds that were so lovingly forged between themselves are destroyed, sometimes permanently.
Because many people don't realize this fact, many good friendships are ruined. If people would back off and let their friends make their own decisions, it would strengthen the relationship. After all, it is easier to respect a person who gives council rather than nagging. Friendships also last longer when people respect each other's right to self determination and privacy. Having had extensive experience with well-meaning folks poking their noses into my affairs, I know whereof I speak.
I have posted this article b4 in my old blog, n i forgotten all abt it after all these years. I did in the past, tried to change many things that i'm not happy about, failing to see n understand the point that by making others become what they are not is actually harder and more damaging than living with and accepting their "bad points". Letting others be whoever they want to be is not that bad, because me myself is not that perfect also. We let the ppl ard us be themselves freely and accept them as they are. Therefore, it is best i stay where i am now...
It wasn't a new book and in fact, i have read it once a few years ago. however, i failed to comprehend what the book really meant back then. its abt destiny, dreams and exploring n going after one's dream.
I managed to try to read it one more time today n came across a very meaningful n interesting quote. 1 i am sure is applicable to everyone here, n more so for myself.
"When someone sees the same people every day, ...... they wind up becoming a part of that person's life. And then they want the person to change. If someone isn't what others want them to be, the others become angry. Everyone seems to have a clear idea of how other people should lead their lives, but none about his or her own." -- Paul Coelho, The Alchemist, pg. 16.
This quote actually reminds me of another concept which I've mentioned years ago in my old blog, one which i have quite forgotten until recently: Familiarity Breeds Contempt. It is an old, old concept of which it simple means: "the more you know something or someone, the more you start to find faults and dislike things about it or them."
Why Familiarity breeds Contempt
This article was published in an underground "zine" called Kosh Dude during 1994.
It seems strange that such a nice concept like familiarity would create such an unpleasant emotion like contempt. Getting to know a friend should deepen the relationship rather than strain it. Unfortunately there are many people who ruin friendships by becoming too possessive.
Most friendships start out innocently enough. Two people meet and find that they have common interests. This makes them want to find out more and more about each other. The problems begin when one person starts to tell the other how they should live and what they should do. Things get worse when that friend starts worrying too much about the other's actions and decisions. Because people resent it when others interfere with their personal business, arguments usually erupt. The bonds that were so lovingly forged between themselves are destroyed, sometimes permanently.
Because many people don't realize this fact, many good friendships are ruined. If people would back off and let their friends make their own decisions, it would strengthen the relationship. After all, it is easier to respect a person who gives council rather than nagging. Friendships also last longer when people respect each other's right to self determination and privacy. Having had extensive experience with well-meaning folks poking their noses into my affairs, I know whereof I speak.
I have posted this article b4 in my old blog, n i forgotten all abt it after all these years. I did in the past, tried to change many things that i'm not happy about, failing to see n understand the point that by making others become what they are not is actually harder and more damaging than living with and accepting their "bad points". Letting others be whoever they want to be is not that bad, because me myself is not that perfect also. We let the ppl ard us be themselves freely and accept them as they are. Therefore, it is best i stay where i am now...
It's been the 6th week into work, n i am getting quite used to the environment. Went for some company dinner on fri at a jap restaurant. drank a few classes, duh! now they all noe i am a drinker. =X think its not a very good display of myself. hahaha... well, at least nt so distance anymore but more work will be needed.
Hmmm.. let me think what's up for the coming weeks... i can smell the birthday season. AHHH.. oh no... birthdays, weddings, baby full month... it can just nv end! n i am getting so poor for paying $20-$80 each time for those. aiyoyo...
Taiwan in another 4 weeks or so.. will definitely burn a big hole in my pocket. when can i start saving again?
Hmmm.. let me think what's up for the coming weeks... i can smell the birthday season. AHHH.. oh no... birthdays, weddings, baby full month... it can just nv end! n i am getting so poor for paying $20-$80 each time for those. aiyoyo...
Taiwan in another 4 weeks or so.. will definitely burn a big hole in my pocket. when can i start saving again?
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
PEK CEK
God! Toshiba laptop is soooooooo frustrating! it is soooooooooo tortoise that half of the time today, i spent it waiting for my files to load! while i opened my illustrator, i cant open my photoshop. while i opened my photoshop, i cant open my illustrator and outlook! gosh! how efficient can i b?
Speaking of which, my internet connection got some serious problem also. cant access yahoo n gmail. been like this for a few days. so frustrating.. n i dun even hav the time to call singnet n complain to them. oh darn!
Also, my tosh laptop at home is also nearing to the end of its life. slow n steady, surprisingly it is still working! its been almost 4 years, i remember i bought it when i juz entered NTU at the IT show. an impulsive decision n i nv knew it can last so long man.. still remember it was ard early sept or end aug as cos of this laptop, we were late for fen's 21st bday celebration. hahaha.... hmmm.. oh well... *shrug* i guess when my life in ntu had come to an end, my dear toshi will do so too.
Shall prepare a storybook to be read in the office tml. dun like to b staring into blank space while waiting for my 135mb file to load. bleah...
Speaking of which, my internet connection got some serious problem also. cant access yahoo n gmail. been like this for a few days. so frustrating.. n i dun even hav the time to call singnet n complain to them. oh darn!
Also, my tosh laptop at home is also nearing to the end of its life. slow n steady, surprisingly it is still working! its been almost 4 years, i remember i bought it when i juz entered NTU at the IT show. an impulsive decision n i nv knew it can last so long man.. still remember it was ard early sept or end aug as cos of this laptop, we were late for fen's 21st bday celebration. hahaha.... hmmm.. oh well... *shrug* i guess when my life in ntu had come to an end, my dear toshi will do so too.
Shall prepare a storybook to be read in the office tml. dun like to b staring into blank space while waiting for my 135mb file to load. bleah...
Sunday, April 13, 2008
Stop villian--nizing me!
Its another week! aiyoh, weeks after weeks pass by like nobody's business! feel like i am getting old really fast man...
Wasnt having a good week at work, lots of cock up.. crap..oh well.. i dun bother to go into detail abt it also..
And i have nothing much to blog about too. except tat some ppl just nv get it... and they probably nv will... its just weird, does making me look like a villian all tat fulfilling? maybe it does! bleah.. whatever..
To all those who r gearing up for the onslaught of exams: Jia you! All the best and good luck! After exams we shall have some gathering again~~~
To all those who will be traveling out next week: have a fun n safe trip! n remember to buy souvenirs for me!!! dun thnk so much n just do wat u r suppose to do. life is too short to keep worrying about unimportant stuff..
As for me? oh well, back to work, back to doing the same old boring stuff... i need a real break man.. nt as in the holiday kind of break but more like a breakthrough kind of break.. man...
Wasnt having a good week at work, lots of cock up.. crap..oh well.. i dun bother to go into detail abt it also..
And i have nothing much to blog about too. except tat some ppl just nv get it... and they probably nv will... its just weird, does making me look like a villian all tat fulfilling? maybe it does! bleah.. whatever..
To all those who r gearing up for the onslaught of exams: Jia you! All the best and good luck! After exams we shall have some gathering again~~~
To all those who will be traveling out next week: have a fun n safe trip! n remember to buy souvenirs for me!!! dun thnk so much n just do wat u r suppose to do. life is too short to keep worrying about unimportant stuff..
As for me? oh well, back to work, back to doing the same old boring stuff... i need a real break man.. nt as in the holiday kind of break but more like a breakthrough kind of break.. man...
Monday, April 7, 2008
me vs. me
Maybe its rather "fun" to be the villian. No matter i deserve it or not, i am always the villian in any kind of situation... well, since i am so good at it, i muz as well enjoy being 1 huh?!
Have been asking myself this qn since quite a while ago: what is the pt of being a supposingly "good" person?
I am definitely not a good person for everyone's sake, but i am always the 1 being blamed for whatever shit tat happened. ya.. since no 1 appreciate goodness, i shall be contributing to the filth.
Yes, if for 1 day i've changed, i change for circumstances...
Have been asking myself this qn since quite a while ago: what is the pt of being a supposingly "good" person?
I am definitely not a good person for everyone's sake, but i am always the 1 being blamed for whatever shit tat happened. ya.. since no 1 appreciate goodness, i shall be contributing to the filth.
Yes, if for 1 day i've changed, i change for circumstances...
Sunday, April 6, 2008
Oh just remember the telephone works both ways
Been listening to Jason Mraz's You and I Both repeatly.. n it is such a gd song sung by such a wonderful singer! didnt quite get wat the song is all abt at 1st, but after numerous listening n looking at the lyrics, i finally understand it!
Damn, if only i can perform as gd as he is...
And...... and if you can understand this song as i do... ya, this is for you...
You and I both - Jason Mraz
(The best version i can find online.. listen on...)
Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me
Oh things are gonna happen naturally
Oh taking your advice and I'm looking on the bright side
And balancing the whole thing
But often times those words get tangled up in lines
And the bright lights turn to night
Until the dawn it brings
Another day to sing about the magic that was you and me
Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just dream of
Others only read of the love, the love that I love.
See I'm all about them words
Over numbers, unencumbered numbered words
Hundreds of pages, pages, pages forwards
More words then I had ever heard and I feel so alive
Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of
Oh and if you could see me now
Oh love, love
You and I, you and I
Not so little you and I anymore
And with this silence brings a moral story
More importantly evolving is the glory of a boy
Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of
And if you could see me now
Well I'm almost finally out of
I'm finally out of
Finally deedeedeedee
Well I'm almost finally, finally
Well I'm free, free
And it's okay if you have go away
Oh just remember the telephone works both ways
And if I never ever hear them ring
If nothing else I'll think the bells inside
Have finally found you someone else and that's okay
Cause I'll remember everything you sang
Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of and if you could see now
Well I'm almost finally out of.
I'm finally out of, finally, deedeeededede
Well I'm almost finally, finally, finally out of words.
And as i've always said, i am not a person gd with words...
Damn, if only i can perform as gd as he is...
And...... and if you can understand this song as i do... ya, this is for you...
You and I both - Jason Mraz
(The best version i can find online.. listen on...)
Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me
Oh things are gonna happen naturally
Oh taking your advice and I'm looking on the bright side
And balancing the whole thing
But often times those words get tangled up in lines
And the bright lights turn to night
Until the dawn it brings
Another day to sing about the magic that was you and me
Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just dream of
Others only read of the love, the love that I love.
See I'm all about them words
Over numbers, unencumbered numbered words
Hundreds of pages, pages, pages forwards
More words then I had ever heard and I feel so alive
Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of
Oh and if you could see me now
Oh love, love
You and I, you and I
Not so little you and I anymore
And with this silence brings a moral story
More importantly evolving is the glory of a boy
Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of
And if you could see me now
Well I'm almost finally out of
I'm finally out of
Finally deedeedeedee
Well I'm almost finally, finally
Well I'm free, free
And it's okay if you have go away
Oh just remember the telephone works both ways
And if I never ever hear them ring
If nothing else I'll think the bells inside
Have finally found you someone else and that's okay
Cause I'll remember everything you sang
Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of and if you could see now
Well I'm almost finally out of.
I'm finally out of, finally, deedeeededede
Well I'm almost finally, finally, finally out of words.
And as i've always said, i am not a person gd with words...
Sunday, March 30, 2008
nee ah nee...
"親愛的…你有多久沒有去想開心的事了?千萬不要像我一樣忙過頭而忽略了自己最在乎的事。開心真的是種神奇的藥。要不要痊愈真的得靠自己了，如果你也是和我一樣一個人過的話，就乖乖吃藥吧！就和我一樣把藥找出來吧！可別像我一樣老把自己陷入兩難裡，兩難這首歌我都唱完了，我想接下來就不難了…在此附上兩難歌詞以作輔助為何兩難。" ...... ah' nee 28032008
Eccentric Nee is at it again... Well, wat can i say? i was really kinda down recently. cos of work? ya maybe.. cos of ppl who r close to me? maybe.. but life is full of ups n downs ya. so we shld do wat ah nee taught us to do, think of the happy stuff!!!
So what happy stuff had happened recently? hmmm.. its gonna b tough but let me think...
1. I got my 1st pay aldy! its nt much but hopefully enuff to get me by.
2. its 1 mth of work n i havent make any big mistake. its kinda boring but its work ya!
3. i've finally confirmed my tw trip regardless of my company's decision to hold me back or wat... which actually remind me tat on mon, i shld ask my sup whether i shld apply for it aldy or nt. ya..
4. i realised i still hav frenz. nt many r still the same as they were b4, some still havent changed after all this while. some whom i tot i'll probably nv talk to ever again actually can still say "hi" and "bye" and the occasion regards, n tat is gd enuff... but no matter who they r, where they r... they r still ard me.
5. i've decided to remain strong n hopefully able to get stronger. positive all the way!
So ah' nee, see ya on May 24th. but pls dun b TTOOOOOOOOO overly eccentric cos i will only b sitting at the 2nd row and my weak heart cannot take too much of ur pounding! n pls turn up on the 25th ya.. if nt i will really bo ho seh u liao... 1st n last, oh well...
I actually tot i caught some gd photos recently. HOWEVER, i used my "state-of-the-art" hp n these photos turned out to b VERY "state-of-the-art" on my pc as well.. better than nothing la.. punishment for being too lazy to bring my cam out. hahaha..
I swear this photo turned out well in my hp small screen n it looked like shit here.
ooops.. was caught taking photos n was awarded with a kick. at least fen is sweeeeeeet enuff to offer me her almost finished lollypop. bleah! (n no, they weren't doing sit ups actually. hahaha!!)
"what are you looking at?" cheeeeky mask spotted in "rojak" Luna at clarke quay.
oh my, we went to clementi tat day to wait for huiting n found out that our macdonld's there were being closed, for good!!! cant help by thinking about all our teenage years spent there. old things nv stay ah?
Experimentative shot with no particular meaning: lamp at Marina Mandarin.
high celling at Marina Mandarin
its a full mon friday. n it turned out crap on pc as well.
muffin slping!!! she is sooooooo cute! n i cant help but wonder how many of such years does she still has?
a bottle on Tsing Tao at $5.25??????? where has my RMB3.80 per bottle gone to?? muz as well go kill ppl, put fire!
the world is over our heads at Demsey's Dome.
a lone monkey. note the contrast between the 2 monkey photos?
Eccentric Nee is at it again... Well, wat can i say? i was really kinda down recently. cos of work? ya maybe.. cos of ppl who r close to me? maybe.. but life is full of ups n downs ya. so we shld do wat ah nee taught us to do, think of the happy stuff!!!
So what happy stuff had happened recently? hmmm.. its gonna b tough but let me think...
1. I got my 1st pay aldy! its nt much but hopefully enuff to get me by.
2. its 1 mth of work n i havent make any big mistake. its kinda boring but its work ya!
3. i've finally confirmed my tw trip regardless of my company's decision to hold me back or wat... which actually remind me tat on mon, i shld ask my sup whether i shld apply for it aldy or nt. ya..
4. i realised i still hav frenz. nt many r still the same as they were b4, some still havent changed after all this while. some whom i tot i'll probably nv talk to ever again actually can still say "hi" and "bye" and the occasion regards, n tat is gd enuff... but no matter who they r, where they r... they r still ard me.
5. i've decided to remain strong n hopefully able to get stronger. positive all the way!
So ah' nee, see ya on May 24th. but pls dun b TTOOOOOOOOO overly eccentric cos i will only b sitting at the 2nd row and my weak heart cannot take too much of ur pounding! n pls turn up on the 25th ya.. if nt i will really bo ho seh u liao... 1st n last, oh well...
I actually tot i caught some gd photos recently. HOWEVER, i used my "state-of-the-art" hp n these photos turned out to b VERY "state-of-the-art" on my pc as well.. better than nothing la.. punishment for being too lazy to bring my cam out. hahaha..
I swear this photo turned out well in my hp small screen n it looked like shit here.Check out how healthy xan n fen are! they were doing sit ups in west coast's coast! (BUT! what is the lollypop doing there????)
ooops.. was caught taking photos n was awarded with a kick. at least fen is sweeeeeeet enuff to offer me her almost finished lollypop. bleah! (n no, they weren't doing sit ups actually. hahaha!!)
"what are you looking at?" cheeeeky mask spotted in "rojak" Luna at clarke quay.big red lanterns high high hang! so i suppose by decorating your club with renaissance nude woman photos, chandelier, european arm chairs togrther with China communist people drawings, cheeky masks, barmaids with bright red wigs and toilet that looks like a prison gives u a...... ROJAK club, Luna! (that btw, they have live bands singing china songs too)
oh my, we went to clementi tat day to wait for huiting n found out that our macdonld's there were being closed, for good!!! cant help by thinking about all our teenage years spent there. old things nv stay ah?
Experimentative shot with no particular meaning: lamp at Marina Mandarin.
high celling at Marina Mandarin
its a full mon friday. n it turned out crap on pc as well.
muffin slping!!! she is sooooooo cute! n i cant help but wonder how many of such years does she still has?
a bottle on Tsing Tao at $5.25??????? where has my RMB3.80 per bottle gone to?? muz as well go kill ppl, put fire!
the monkey family curling up n slping! a rare rare sight!
a lone monkey. note the contrast between the 2 monkey photos?Thursday, March 27, 2008
Sunday, March 23, 2008
OMG!!! its been THREE months!!! so wat hav i achieved in this 90 (or so) days? nothing much perhaps.. i guess it will still b pretty much the same for the nex 3 mths maybe?
N ya, i still miss the days at the pearly land. u pretty much dun hav to worry abt much except where to play n shop. hahaha.. those were the days man.. N i noe it sucks, tml is monday again!! blueee blueeeee blueeeeee
I got much better btw... the sore throat is gone n my flu is much better. juz when monday is coming, how nice? bleah!
时间, 倒数吧! 我因此而无法再回到过去...
N ya, i still miss the days at the pearly land. u pretty much dun hav to worry abt much except where to play n shop. hahaha.. those were the days man.. N i noe it sucks, tml is monday again!! blueee blueeeee blueeeeee
I got much better btw... the sore throat is gone n my flu is much better. juz when monday is coming, how nice? bleah!
时间, 倒数吧! 我因此而无法再回到过去...
Saturday, March 22, 2008
Mar 22nd is World Water Day... ever tot of trying to save some water? well, i guess it will make a difference to those who arent like us... arent fortunate like us..
Nex time if u want to spend 1hr bathing for ur own sweet pleasure? think again.
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Taiwan election looks fun. all the news reports, hype n such.. ahhhh.. if only sg's is juz as exciting... n ya, to sg, taiwan's election is certainly much bigger than certain JI leader's disappearence, cos we saw much bigger n more comprehensive reports on a foreign land's election than our small-time bugger little escappppeee episode. who cares?? *shrug
N ya.. my mum, sis n me r all sick.. again! god, my sis is always the person who started it all n passed it to us. so i hav no choice but to spend the long weekend resting at home.. slping..
Nex time if u want to spend 1hr bathing for ur own sweet pleasure? think again.
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Taiwan election looks fun. all the news reports, hype n such.. ahhhh.. if only sg's is juz as exciting... n ya, to sg, taiwan's election is certainly much bigger than certain JI leader's disappearence, cos we saw much bigger n more comprehensive reports on a foreign land's election than our small-time bugger little escappppeee episode. who cares?? *shrug
N ya.. my mum, sis n me r all sick.. again! god, my sis is always the person who started it all n passed it to us. so i hav no choice but to spend the long weekend resting at home.. slping..
Monday, March 17, 2008
Something to share
This is a poem written by a teenager with cancer. "........"
It is quite a realistic poem. ".........."
This poem was written by a terminally ill young girl in a New York Hospital .
It was sent by a medical doctor - "........"
SLOW DANCE
Have you ever watched kids
On a merry-go-round?
Or listened to the rain
Slapping on the ground?
Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?
You better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.
Do you run through each day
On the fly?
When you ask How are you?
Do you hear the reply?
When the day is done
Do you lie in your bed
With the next hundred chores
Running through your head?
You'd better slow down
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.
Ever told your child, we'll do it tomorrow?
And in your haste, not see his sorrow?
Ever lost touch,
Let a good friendship die
Cause you never had time
To call and say,'Hi'
You'd better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.
When you run so fast to get somewhere
You miss half the fun of getting there.
When you worry and hurry through your day,
It is like an unopened gift....
Thrown away.
Life is not a race.
Do take it slower
Hear the music
Before the song is over.
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我想也没关系 就算我没有出息
就用生命的眼睛
来捕捉你插肩而过留下的背影
我想也没关系 就算我不够聪明
我会用我的任性 试着去瓦解
这城市的拥挤
-- P.Tai
It is quite a realistic poem. ".........."
This poem was written by a terminally ill young girl in a New York Hospital .
It was sent by a medical doctor - "........"
SLOW DANCE
Have you ever watched kids
On a merry-go-round?
Or listened to the rain
Slapping on the ground?
Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?
You better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.
Do you run through each day
On the fly?
When you ask How are you?
Do you hear the reply?
When the day is done
Do you lie in your bed
With the next hundred chores
Running through your head?
You'd better slow down
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.
Ever told your child, we'll do it tomorrow?
And in your haste, not see his sorrow?
Ever lost touch,
Let a good friendship die
Cause you never had time
To call and say,'Hi'
You'd better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.
When you run so fast to get somewhere
You miss half the fun of getting there.
When you worry and hurry through your day,
It is like an unopened gift....
Thrown away.
Life is not a race.
Do take it slower
Hear the music
Before the song is over.
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我想也没关系 就算我没有出息
就用生命的眼睛
来捕捉你插肩而过留下的背影
我想也没关系 就算我不够聪明
我会用我的任性 试着去瓦解
这城市的拥挤
-- P.Tai
Sunday, March 16, 2008
Simple? or Ignorant?
周末又过去了. 还有多少周末呢? 谁知道啊...
昨天突然有了点感触, 想了挺多. 看着窗外的天空, 看着云朵片片游过, 已经多久没这样了? 黑云飘飘而过, 但又不时露出了金黄色的阳光. 天啊! 你也和我一样拿不定注意吗? 到底是要晴天还是下雨呢?!
过去的画面竟然又出现了! 想到现在, 在想想未来. 又一次, 天啊! 你也太没趣了吧, 我现在的生活怎么没象以前精彩了呢? 但平淡一点, 又何尝不是件好事? Oh, a simple life, 不是你一直很向往的吗? 你现在也应该过的很simple吧? 而我, 当然也不会再去把它给复杂化了. 嗯!
P.S. gosh, think i caught a flu thanks to my sis. now my nose is running like mad n kept sneezing! gosh.... n i actualy hope i can go to work tml. well, simply cos i dun wan to take mc so soon. nt gd ya... somemore nex week is short week, no time to do so much also. got some stuff to settle at work la.. dun wan to drag. gosh gosh..
昨天突然有了点感触, 想了挺多. 看着窗外的天空, 看着云朵片片游过, 已经多久没这样了? 黑云飘飘而过, 但又不时露出了金黄色的阳光. 天啊! 你也和我一样拿不定注意吗? 到底是要晴天还是下雨呢?!
过去的画面竟然又出现了! 想到现在, 在想想未来. 又一次, 天啊! 你也太没趣了吧, 我现在的生活怎么没象以前精彩了呢? 但平淡一点, 又何尝不是件好事? Oh, a simple life, 不是你一直很向往的吗? 你现在也应该过的很simple吧? 而我, 当然也不会再去把它给复杂化了. 嗯!
P.S. gosh, think i caught a flu thanks to my sis. now my nose is running like mad n kept sneezing! gosh.... n i actualy hope i can go to work tml. well, simply cos i dun wan to take mc so soon. nt gd ya... somemore nex week is short week, no time to do so much also. got some stuff to settle at work la.. dun wan to drag. gosh gosh..
Saturday, March 15, 2008
Just another day...
Oh my, another week has passed.
Life at work is like a robot on mission, doing the mundane n hoping time will pass fast. gradually, life will just pass me by ya?
Slowly getting used to be a fully permanant worker at a typical MNC. work is rather boring actually... but at least i got fair amt of stuff to do everyday so nt tat BAD during my 1st 2 days of work (hope i didnt make any mistakes cos i hate figures n dun like dealing with it). 1 thing is i cannot use MSN at work, n i find i can actually live well without it! everyday will on msn less than 2hrs on average, which is gd!
Another thing is, i find this work is too desk bound. office work is juz too not suitable for me... oh gosh, think i am rotting off to i dunnoe wat aldy.. Just feel like a damn ROBOT, 1 with a big belly tat is. DAMN!
P.S. anyone who wants to do kickboxing??? i am going to sign up for apr's class soon, drop me a msg if u r keen! (1 thing to hurray abt, my working hrs will b changed to 830 - 530 frm apr fool's onwards! hahaha... hope its nt a darn joke ya.. another thing to hurray abt: 4-day working week nex week!!!!)
P.P.S. Just heard 张惠妹's song playing on my MP3 n realised: Oh my GOSH, it has been 2 freaking yrs! 一个决定真的会有因和果.因果报应, 何时才能还完?
Life at work is like a robot on mission, doing the mundane n hoping time will pass fast. gradually, life will just pass me by ya?
Slowly getting used to be a fully permanant worker at a typical MNC. work is rather boring actually... but at least i got fair amt of stuff to do everyday so nt tat BAD during my 1st 2 days of work (hope i didnt make any mistakes cos i hate figures n dun like dealing with it). 1 thing is i cannot use MSN at work, n i find i can actually live well without it! everyday will on msn less than 2hrs on average, which is gd!
Another thing is, i find this work is too desk bound. office work is juz too not suitable for me... oh gosh, think i am rotting off to i dunnoe wat aldy.. Just feel like a damn ROBOT, 1 with a big belly tat is. DAMN!
P.S. anyone who wants to do kickboxing??? i am going to sign up for apr's class soon, drop me a msg if u r keen! (1 thing to hurray abt, my working hrs will b changed to 830 - 530 frm apr fool's onwards! hahaha... hope its nt a darn joke ya.. another thing to hurray abt: 4-day working week nex week!!!!)
P.P.S. Just heard 张惠妹's song playing on my MP3 n realised: Oh my GOSH, it has been 2 freaking yrs! 一个决定真的会有因和果.因果报应, 何时才能还完?
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
Its a panda day
Hey peeps, check this cartoon out! Kung Fu Panda by Dreamworks!
Of cos its starring a PANDA voiced by Jack Black n he is sooooo cute! hahaha.. gonna catch it when it comes out in june man..
Anyway, so how's work? GOD! this qn has been asked sooooo MANY times i am really speechless abt it now. well, yest was quite bad cos i was soooooo bored n low morale man.. But today was better cos i got more things to do n started to get a hang of it with my colleagues (although i still feel a bit awakard really). well, i noe it all takes time n things will slowly b picking up. =)
N oh btw, i am really a panda now cos i'm seriously lack of slp! gosh...
Of cos its starring a PANDA voiced by Jack Black n he is sooooo cute! hahaha.. gonna catch it when it comes out in june man..
Anyway, so how's work? GOD! this qn has been asked sooooo MANY times i am really speechless abt it now. well, yest was quite bad cos i was soooooo bored n low morale man.. But today was better cos i got more things to do n started to get a hang of it with my colleagues (although i still feel a bit awakard really). well, i noe it all takes time n things will slowly b picking up. =)
N oh btw, i am really a panda now cos i'm seriously lack of slp! gosh...
Sunday, March 2, 2008
Tml it is the day..
It is both amusing and puzzling how some ppl just wouldn't listen no matter what was done or what was said.
Tomorrow finally is the day for me to commence work. First day of work, i guess it would be rather slack n having nothing much to do. I didnt noe wat do expect but somehow, quite glad tat i am slacking no more at home. I am the kind of person who will feel even lazier when i am being lazy, so it'll just get worse n worse. However, i kinda regret i nv make much good use of the 2 weeks slacking period i had. Wasted the "holidays" at home slacking n doing nothing. If i had planned better, i could have accomplished a lot of things n went to many place...
But oh well...
Tomorrow finally is the day for me to commence work. First day of work, i guess it would be rather slack n having nothing much to do. I didnt noe wat do expect but somehow, quite glad tat i am slacking no more at home. I am the kind of person who will feel even lazier when i am being lazy, so it'll just get worse n worse. However, i kinda regret i nv make much good use of the 2 weeks slacking period i had. Wasted the "holidays" at home slacking n doing nothing. If i had planned better, i could have accomplished a lot of things n went to many place...
But oh well...
Saturday, March 1, 2008
Thursday, February 28, 2008
Hahahaha... i cant help but b so amused by the papers n news reports that i've came acrossed today.
"His escape is a surprise because the SG govt takes security very seriously. It's a FREAK incident"
"There, he requested to go to the toilet and escaped"
"The incident should not have happened and he is sorry that it had"
"He added that the security at the centre has since been stepped up"
"Why, since Mas Selamat is a security threat, did the authorities take four hours to inform the public of the escape? "
And of cos i am talking about the leader of SG JI network who had merrily escaped frm a detention centre from u guessed it! the toilet. I know what would come next, "It's an honest mistake!" So much for our world class police force... =)
The place where this man escaped from is rather near my house... hahaha... oh my, he could be lurking ard my house area, hillview, woodlands, bukit panjang n cck since there r quite a few forested areas ard.
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""2 % gst to "help" the poor.
ERP gantries to "help" the flow of traffic
Increase ministers' pay to "help" the govt retain "talent"
Debate in parliments for months still cannot decide to increase the welfare grant tat helps the poor
$288k sgd to nurture FT athelete to "help" improve Sg's sport's standing""
Need we say more.....
"His escape is a surprise because the SG govt takes security very seriously. It's a FREAK incident"
"There, he requested to go to the toilet and escaped"
"The incident should not have happened and he is sorry that it had"
"He added that the security at the centre has since been stepped up"
"Why, since Mas Selamat is a security threat, did the authorities take four hours to inform the public of the escape? "
And of cos i am talking about the leader of SG JI network who had merrily escaped frm a detention centre from u guessed it! the toilet. I know what would come next, "It's an honest mistake!" So much for our world class police force... =)
The place where this man escaped from is rather near my house... hahaha... oh my, he could be lurking ard my house area, hillview, woodlands, bukit panjang n cck since there r quite a few forested areas ard.
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""2 % gst to "help" the poor.
ERP gantries to "help" the flow of traffic
Increase ministers' pay to "help" the govt retain "talent"
Debate in parliments for months still cannot decide to increase the welfare grant tat helps the poor
$288k sgd to nurture FT athelete to "help" improve Sg's sport's standing""
Need we say more.....
Monday, February 25, 2008
Another dull day at home...
Oh man, i guess its really nt gd to b slacking so much. Now that i've waited so long till the start of my work, i somehow feel lazier n lost the drive (well, it as if i have much to begin with).
Can believe this week is also the recess week for NTU. gosh, havent they just started sch? time really dammingly flew!
6 more days till my 1st day of work. oh my, i somehow dragged it n feel so sian at home now, doing nothing. Hmmm... think i shld make my way to west coast tml, to slack n drink latte, like always used to do b4 i go into uni. hahahaah... well, those were the days tat are fondly missed.
If there is only 1 thing that no one in the world can hold on to, it will be: Time.
P.S. Oh ya, did i mention tat i am now hopelessly FAT??? gosh! after the shanghai n CNY ordeal i am now approacing a brand new heights for my WEIGHT! ok, the number 1 thing to do now is to cut the junks n do some bones n muscles rocking man... cut my beer belly (ARGH!), my fat thighs n my exploding butt. oh ya man... go go go!!!
Can believe this week is also the recess week for NTU. gosh, havent they just started sch? time really dammingly flew!
6 more days till my 1st day of work. oh my, i somehow dragged it n feel so sian at home now, doing nothing. Hmmm... think i shld make my way to west coast tml, to slack n drink latte, like always used to do b4 i go into uni. hahahaah... well, those were the days tat are fondly missed.
If there is only 1 thing that no one in the world can hold on to, it will be: Time.
P.S. Oh ya, did i mention tat i am now hopelessly FAT??? gosh! after the shanghai n CNY ordeal i am now approacing a brand new heights for my WEIGHT! ok, the number 1 thing to do now is to cut the junks n do some bones n muscles rocking man... cut my beer belly (ARGH!), my fat thighs n my exploding butt. oh ya man... go go go!!!
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
Hopelessly broke but still hopeful
Although i am helplessly broke, i still got myself a pair of jeans that cost me $140, togetherwith a watch tat cost $175 n a pair of slippers that cost $35!
Although i know i wont have much $$ left b4 i start getting my 1st pay, i am still going to watch at least 1 movie per week! hahaha..
I'm still getting calls these few days to ask me to go for interviews and 2nd interviews. Maybe i made my decision too fast? oh well.... I am still hopeful ok.. no matter wat it is, ya i am still hopeful..
Anyway, managed to catch Juno yesterday. Basically its a story abt a teenage girl who was unexpectedly impregnant by a fren and how she handled her unwanted pregnancy and the consequences that were brought to her. Ok, its nt bad for a small budget indie film... nt as funny as i've hope it will be. It can be more heart warming with much more character & story development. My guess is that the director do nt want to shift the focus of the main storyline n kept it as wat it is. The acting is gd through, juz a simple script that was put into gd play by excellent actors n actresses. Simply a light hearted movie that u can relax and watch after a stressed out day at work. A bit of a overrated i would say but still, its better than those big budget hollywood movie by far (read: spiderman 3, fantastic 4, transformers blah blah...).
Am going to catch Death Note L: Change the World and The Leap Years. Yeeeeel, a local production? hahha.. after i caught the trailer yest, i tot it was quite decent considering that its a local production. simple love story nonetheless but.. hope it'll b gd.
"Its better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all..."
P.S. I think the music that accompanied this trailer ROCKS! But too bad, its a ripped off of Ryuichi Sakamoto's Forbbiden Colours (juz changing the melody abit here n there n u'll escaped plagiarism! tat was wat we were taught in sch anyway). Go youTubed it if u like.
Although i know i wont have much $$ left b4 i start getting my 1st pay, i am still going to watch at least 1 movie per week! hahaha..
I'm still getting calls these few days to ask me to go for interviews and 2nd interviews. Maybe i made my decision too fast? oh well.... I am still hopeful ok.. no matter wat it is, ya i am still hopeful..
Anyway, managed to catch Juno yesterday. Basically its a story abt a teenage girl who was unexpectedly impregnant by a fren and how she handled her unwanted pregnancy and the consequences that were brought to her. Ok, its nt bad for a small budget indie film... nt as funny as i've hope it will be. It can be more heart warming with much more character & story development. My guess is that the director do nt want to shift the focus of the main storyline n kept it as wat it is. The acting is gd through, juz a simple script that was put into gd play by excellent actors n actresses. Simply a light hearted movie that u can relax and watch after a stressed out day at work. A bit of a overrated i would say but still, its better than those big budget hollywood movie by far (read: spiderman 3, fantastic 4, transformers blah blah...).
Am going to catch Death Note L: Change the World and The Leap Years. Yeeeeel, a local production? hahha.. after i caught the trailer yest, i tot it was quite decent considering that its a local production. simple love story nonetheless but.. hope it'll b gd.
"Its better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all..."
P.S. I think the music that accompanied this trailer ROCKS! But too bad, its a ripped off of Ryuichi Sakamoto's Forbbiden Colours (juz changing the melody abit here n there n u'll escaped plagiarism! tat was wat we were taught in sch anyway). Go youTubed it if u like.
Monday, February 18, 2008
Life in NTU: The closing...
Juz called the sch to check if i still have any outstanding bills with them; all clear. Good! Which means i can go and collect my final transcript tml n that will mark the end of my NTU life.
3 and a half years in NTU, it sounds like a long time but well, time flew by so fast it feels like i am still in year 1. *Starts to recall....
March 2004:
Accompanied fen to a career fair cos both of us were equally lost at that time. Actually i have aldy made up my mind to further my studies in Aussie, Mudorch Uni n was in the midst of accepting the offer. But who noes? I came across a NTU, Comm Studies booth at the career fair n immediately tot this course looks and sounds nt bad. I went over to speak to the prof whom i still remember, is Dr. Xu Xiaoge. He talked to me abt some details of the course n said that year is the 1st year they started accepting poly students. I told him i came from a quite different poly course n didnt have a Certificate of Merit. But i still remember him telling me, "but its still worth a try".
And hell did i try. the registration process was long n troublesome but i nv give up bcos i kept telling myself "as long as i tried my best, i wont hav any regrets." So, i submitted all my testimonials, my poly transcripts, self-written personal statement, SAT results blah blah.. Went for the interview, did the test n such. After all tat, actually i nv tot i will be selected due to my pessemistic nature. hahaha... I was actually preparing mysrlf to go Australia aldy.
Apr 2004
On that faithful day, which i've forgotten when was it, i opened my mailbox n received an acceptance letter from NTU. "OMG! i was accepted!!!" for a moment i couldnt believe it.. i contemplated for a few moment.. a few days.. 4 yrs in sg or 2 yrs in Aussie? i even asked a few of my frenz for opinion, in the end, i chose the longer route. The rest is history.
NTU Sem 1, 2004/2005 academic year
From that day onwards till the end of semester 1, i tot i was the happiest and luckiest person on earth. hahaha.. a lot of things happened but unfortunately, i took everything for granted what i had until i lost it. but 1 thing, i admit sch sux to the core.. i was in for a culture shock n did poorly for my sch work.
Sem 2, 3 n 4 passed quickly like its nobody's business. got to noe more frenz in sch but nt really close 1s.. At a pt of time, i really loathed my life in NTU but i always got a bunch of old frenz to keep me going. As sem 5 approached, i went thru a period tat really allowed me to learn grow. Had the busiest semester in uni, projects after projects, difficult modules n when i tot i couldn't make it thru, i came upon setbacks, misunderstandings n stuff. but it is through this experience that taught me the ugly sides of human beings, including my own. I promised myself a lot of things during this period of time, n these promises shall stick with me till the end.
Fortunately, it is also cos of this that i've decided to venture out for my internship, which saw me packing my bags for Shanghai. The 6mths spent in a foreign land with complete strangers is a strange ordeal... Strange yet so fun! I had the time of my life perhaps... for the traveling, shopping, cold weather, squeezing trains, the food, the Chinese ppl, the alcohol.. oh my.. Was that the rite choice...
So eventually, i hung on for 3 and a half years. What can be described as a roller coaster Uni life ended on a high note, which i'm really glad to hav. Although i wouldn't say i've enjoyed my uni life but it certainly is an impt (if the most impt) part of my life. I tot i regretted nt going to Aussie to pursue my degree but thinking back, i guessed i've made the right choice afterall. 不能够天长地久但至少我曾经拥有...
Thank Serene, Ziwei n Diane who sticked with me for most of the projects. We had our ups n downs, quarrels and happiness. I guessed its all part of a gd experience ya? Not forgetting they are also the peeps who gave me considerably fair amt of comfort and encouragement when i was down. I wont forget our days in our small, little sch. the benches, the tiny tutorial rooms, the 100 odd seats lecture theatre, the studio, etc. back then they don't mean a thing, but now, it means a lot. cos it forms a past that i can nv, ever go back to. thanks.
Thanks all the teaching and admin staff of WKWSCI & NTU more notably, Dr. Angela Mak, Dr. Foo Tee Tuan, Dr. Lee Chun Wah & Dr. Xu Xiaoge (who also approved of me going to GIP).. Who taught us with fair amt of passion n gave us the help when we needed some.
A big thank to all the frenz who helped me pull through, who accommodate to my stupidity, my naive thoughts, my stubborness and attention. And of cos, to you, who is ever so impatient but yet, given me so much patience throughout the years n beared with all the shit i hav given u... i am nv a person gd with words, its hard i guess. with all those that had happened, i guess both of us will continue to live in fear, doubts n misunderstandings that can nv be cleared. but no matter what, maybe somehow.. it will still b a part of me.
Nanyang Technological University
Degree of Bachelor of Communication Studies
2004-2007
Bye Bye...
3 and a half years in NTU, it sounds like a long time but well, time flew by so fast it feels like i am still in year 1. *Starts to recall....
March 2004:
Accompanied fen to a career fair cos both of us were equally lost at that time. Actually i have aldy made up my mind to further my studies in Aussie, Mudorch Uni n was in the midst of accepting the offer. But who noes? I came across a NTU, Comm Studies booth at the career fair n immediately tot this course looks and sounds nt bad. I went over to speak to the prof whom i still remember, is Dr. Xu Xiaoge. He talked to me abt some details of the course n said that year is the 1st year they started accepting poly students. I told him i came from a quite different poly course n didnt have a Certificate of Merit. But i still remember him telling me, "but its still worth a try".
And hell did i try. the registration process was long n troublesome but i nv give up bcos i kept telling myself "as long as i tried my best, i wont hav any regrets." So, i submitted all my testimonials, my poly transcripts, self-written personal statement, SAT results blah blah.. Went for the interview, did the test n such. After all tat, actually i nv tot i will be selected due to my pessemistic nature. hahaha... I was actually preparing mysrlf to go Australia aldy.
Apr 2004
On that faithful day, which i've forgotten when was it, i opened my mailbox n received an acceptance letter from NTU. "OMG! i was accepted!!!" for a moment i couldnt believe it.. i contemplated for a few moment.. a few days.. 4 yrs in sg or 2 yrs in Aussie? i even asked a few of my frenz for opinion, in the end, i chose the longer route. The rest is history.
NTU Sem 1, 2004/2005 academic year
From that day onwards till the end of semester 1, i tot i was the happiest and luckiest person on earth. hahaha.. a lot of things happened but unfortunately, i took everything for granted what i had until i lost it. but 1 thing, i admit sch sux to the core.. i was in for a culture shock n did poorly for my sch work.
Sem 2, 3 n 4 passed quickly like its nobody's business. got to noe more frenz in sch but nt really close 1s.. At a pt of time, i really loathed my life in NTU but i always got a bunch of old frenz to keep me going. As sem 5 approached, i went thru a period tat really allowed me to learn grow. Had the busiest semester in uni, projects after projects, difficult modules n when i tot i couldn't make it thru, i came upon setbacks, misunderstandings n stuff. but it is through this experience that taught me the ugly sides of human beings, including my own. I promised myself a lot of things during this period of time, n these promises shall stick with me till the end.
Fortunately, it is also cos of this that i've decided to venture out for my internship, which saw me packing my bags for Shanghai. The 6mths spent in a foreign land with complete strangers is a strange ordeal... Strange yet so fun! I had the time of my life perhaps... for the traveling, shopping, cold weather, squeezing trains, the food, the Chinese ppl, the alcohol.. oh my.. Was that the rite choice...
So eventually, i hung on for 3 and a half years. What can be described as a roller coaster Uni life ended on a high note, which i'm really glad to hav. Although i wouldn't say i've enjoyed my uni life but it certainly is an impt (if the most impt) part of my life. I tot i regretted nt going to Aussie to pursue my degree but thinking back, i guessed i've made the right choice afterall. 不能够天长地久但至少我曾经拥有...
Thank Serene, Ziwei n Diane who sticked with me for most of the projects. We had our ups n downs, quarrels and happiness. I guessed its all part of a gd experience ya? Not forgetting they are also the peeps who gave me considerably fair amt of comfort and encouragement when i was down. I wont forget our days in our small, little sch. the benches, the tiny tutorial rooms, the 100 odd seats lecture theatre, the studio, etc. back then they don't mean a thing, but now, it means a lot. cos it forms a past that i can nv, ever go back to. thanks.
Thanks all the teaching and admin staff of WKWSCI & NTU more notably, Dr. Angela Mak, Dr. Foo Tee Tuan, Dr. Lee Chun Wah & Dr. Xu Xiaoge (who also approved of me going to GIP).. Who taught us with fair amt of passion n gave us the help when we needed some.
A big thank to all the frenz who helped me pull through, who accommodate to my stupidity, my naive thoughts, my stubborness and attention. And of cos, to you, who is ever so impatient but yet, given me so much patience throughout the years n beared with all the shit i hav given u... i am nv a person gd with words, its hard i guess. with all those that had happened, i guess both of us will continue to live in fear, doubts n misunderstandings that can nv be cleared. but no matter what, maybe somehow.. it will still b a part of me.
Nanyang Technological University
Degree of Bachelor of Communication Studies
2004-2007
Bye Bye...
Sunday, February 17, 2008
Pls remember ur past lessons...
Tattoo by Jordin Sparks
Oh, oh, oh
No matter what you say about love
I keep coming back for more
Keep my hand in the fire
Sooner or later, I'll get what I'm asking for
No matter what you say about life
I learn every time I bleed
That truth is a stranger
Soul is in danger, I gotta let my spirit be free
To admit that I'm wrong
And then change my mind
Sorry but I have to move on
And leave you behind
[Chorus]
I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize, nothing's broken
No need to worry 'bout everything I've done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back at a new direction
I loved you once, needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo
(Just like a tattoo, I'll always have you
I'll always have you, I'll always have you)
I'm sick of playing all of these games
It's not about taking sides
When I looked in the mirror, didn't deliver
It hurt enough to think that I could
Stop, admit that I'm wrong
And then change my mind
Sorry but I gotta be strong
And leave you behind
[Chorus]
(Just like a tattoo, I'll always have you
I'll always have you)
[Bridge]
If I live every moment
Won't change any moment
Still a part of me and you
I will never regret you
Still the memory of you
Marks everything i do
[Chorus x2]
Just like a tattoo
I'll always have you
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Tattooed at the back of my mind & heart and that's quite enough.
The past is haunting which i've came to realize n it will served to remind me of wat are the right things to do.
Well, my heart shall remain hard n determined.
3 times r juz abt enuff.
Saturday, February 16, 2008
Everything has more or less settled down, ya, except for the fact tat i shld hav asked for more $$. hahaha... oops..
Had a steamboat n bbq at hall 2 yest with the GIP peeps. haha... full attendance from Pudong side, kudos to everyone who attended. even had the chance to eat our fav mala hot pot although we look really ah thiong with tat. haha... many of them had gd time eating n do catching up although wat most of them talk abt is only sch stuff. haha.. but still, wanna thanks carmen, jing jing n ben for organizing u putting everything together n all the rest who attended.
Happy CNY everyone!
Had a steamboat n bbq at hall 2 yest with the GIP peeps. haha... full attendance from Pudong side, kudos to everyone who attended. even had the chance to eat our fav mala hot pot although we look really ah thiong with tat. haha... many of them had gd time eating n do catching up although wat most of them talk abt is only sch stuff. haha.. but still, wanna thanks carmen, jing jing n ben for organizing u putting everything together n all the rest who attended.
Happy CNY everyone!
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
The Search is Over
Finally, the search is over.
hope i did not make the wrong decision that is.
How can I convince you
what you see is real
Who am I to blame you
for doubting what you feel
I was always reachin',
you were just a girl I knew
I took for granted the friend I have in you
I was living for a dream,
loving for a moment
Taking on the world,
that was just my style
Now I look into your eyes,
I can see forever
The search is over,
you were with me all the while
Can we last forever,
will we fall apart
At times it's so confusing,
the questions of the heart
You followed me through changes,
and patiently you'd wait
Till I came to my senses,
through some miracle of fate
I was living for a dream,
loving for a moment
Taking on the world,
that was just my style
Now I look into your eyes,
I can see forever
The search is over,
you were with me all the while
Now the miles stretch out behind me,
loves that I have lost
Broken hearts lie victims of the game
Then good luck,
it finally stuck like lightning from the blue
Every highway's leading me back to you
Now at last I hold you,
now all is said and done
The search has come full circle,
our destinies are one
So if you ever loved me,
show me that you give a damn
You'll know for certain the man I really am
I was living for a dream,
loving for a moment
Taking on the world,
that was just my style
When I touched your hand,
I could hear you whisper
The search is over,
love was right before my eyes
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well, this song still brings back memories. used to b the fav.... *shrug
Anyway, i shld b glad. hee hee... end of the interview marathon! can slack till march liao.
hope i did not make the wrong decision that is.
How can I convince you
what you see is real
Who am I to blame you
for doubting what you feel
I was always reachin',
you were just a girl I knew
I took for granted the friend I have in you
I was living for a dream,
loving for a moment
Taking on the world,
that was just my style
Now I look into your eyes,
I can see forever
The search is over,
you were with me all the while
Can we last forever,
will we fall apart
At times it's so confusing,
the questions of the heart
You followed me through changes,
and patiently you'd wait
Till I came to my senses,
through some miracle of fate
I was living for a dream,
loving for a moment
Taking on the world,
that was just my style
Now I look into your eyes,
I can see forever
The search is over,
you were with me all the while
Now the miles stretch out behind me,
loves that I have lost
Broken hearts lie victims of the game
Then good luck,
it finally stuck like lightning from the blue
Every highway's leading me back to you
Now at last I hold you,
now all is said and done
The search has come full circle,
our destinies are one
So if you ever loved me,
show me that you give a damn
You'll know for certain the man I really am
I was living for a dream,
loving for a moment
Taking on the world,
that was just my style
When I touched your hand,
I could hear you whisper
The search is over,
love was right before my eyes
----------------
well, this song still brings back memories. used to b the fav.... *shrug
Anyway, i shld b glad. hee hee... end of the interview marathon! can slack till march liao.
Monday, February 11, 2008
Alright guys...
Much as I believe in the freedom of speech, I will not condone spamming and nonsensical rhetorics in my blog. I appreciate and welcome tags and comments that can add life to this blog n make it more interesting. however, excessive unrelated materials r a waste of time, space n might b annoying.
but then again, pls feel free to continue the comments n tags tat r deemed appropriate in my blog.
Respect others, and others will respect you, if otherwise, i'm afraid i cannot condone.
If you think its wrong, make it right.
If you think its bad, make it good.
If you think its too late, well, its never too late cos its only a matter of will.
Much as I believe in the freedom of speech, I will not condone spamming and nonsensical rhetorics in my blog. I appreciate and welcome tags and comments that can add life to this blog n make it more interesting. however, excessive unrelated materials r a waste of time, space n might b annoying.
but then again, pls feel free to continue the comments n tags tat r deemed appropriate in my blog.
Respect others, and others will respect you, if otherwise, i'm afraid i cannot condone.
If you think its wrong, make it right.
If you think its bad, make it good.
If you think its too late, well, its never too late cos its only a matter of will.
Wednesday, February 6, 2008
鼠年大旺! haha..
Its another brand new CNY soon n i'm gonna say it again, time really flies! still remember i was selling CNY plants in FEF last yr la.. aiyoh..
Anyway, a new year means we muz start everything anew. i am a chirpier mood these few days... am glad. things went on quite ok i guess. but after the CNY holidays, well, think i will go crazy! haha.. many things to do. hope everything will continue smoothly.
世事无难事, 只怕有心人. 2008在继续加油吧!
Anyway, a new year means we muz start everything anew. i am a chirpier mood these few days... am glad. things went on quite ok i guess. but after the CNY holidays, well, think i will go crazy! haha.. many things to do. hope everything will continue smoothly.
世事无难事, 只怕有心人. 2008在继续加油吧!
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
An interesting read...
UK bosses fed up with self-centred diva grads
Gen Y grads: Big headed, boastful, spoilt
THEY want everything to fall into their laps.
And they boast about how tech-savvy, how educated and how much in demand they are.
Meet the Generation Y graduates - those born after 1982 - successors to Gen X. who were known for being cynical and disaffectionate.
If you're an employer in the UK, you probably wouldn't want to meet this particular bunch - the ones many employers are labelling 'graduate divas'.
They're the ones who lack initiative, over-sell themselves, and walk into an interview room chirping 'you all right, mate?'
A report in The Daily Mail says bosses in the UK are looking overseas for staff with a stronger work ethic in a bid to avoid self-centred, fickle and greedy employees.
The article comes after a report from the Association of Graduate Recruiters (AGR) that revealed employers' recruitment difficulties on the low calibre of graduates.
Those in Gen Y are said to be career-orientated, but many bosses find them less than satisfactory. As a result, a quarter of employers now actively market vacancies abroad.
More than two-thirds of the 217employers polled predicted recruitment difficulties in the comingyear - up from 55.4 per cent a yearago.
And last year, nearly half had to leave prized graduate jobs open, even though universities turned out record numbers of students.
Some Gen Y graduates reportedly lack literacy and numeracy skills. Others present themselves poorly.
According to the report, based on responses from employers in investment banks, law and accountancy firms, some Gen Y graduates lack initiative and expect to be pandered to.
In one case, a new recruit to a transport company was heard on the phone saying to his mum: 'I have got to go to London tomorrow and they haven't even told me how to get there.'
MrCarl Gilleard, AGR chief executive, said: 'The employer threw up her hands in anger.
'Here was someone working for a transport company, was 21, spent three years at university and who was aggrieved because he hadn't been given a detailed map.'
Mr Gilleard added: 'There is a sense among Generation Y that they want it all and they want it now. Generation Y is me, me, me, but the employer thinks, no, it's us, us, us.
'I think there is a wake-up call... As far as graduates are concerned, it's really important they understand the rules of the game.'
The demand for top graduates is illustrated by the report's finding that the number of vacancies is at a 10-year high and is expected to rise.
The report also said that graduates are often seen as 'divas... who expect everything to fall into their laps'.
It noted: 'A quarter (of employers) praise the 'strong work ethic and desire to succeed' of overseas graduates.'
Mr Gilleard added: 'This may have wider long-term implications...and both employers and graduates may have to amend their expectations.'
Perhaps it's time for fresh grads, from any generation for that matter, to stop thinking that it's all about them.
---- taken from The Electric New Paper http://tnp.sg/news/story/0,4136,155397,00.html , author unknown
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Well, sometimes it takes more than jus getting a 1st class honours, being in the dean's list (or chair's list or whatever u call tat now), 4.5gpa or scoring an A for ur FYP.... being educated n brought up in a result centric and i am sad to say, "narrow-minded" society, its hard not to think otherwise.
Gen Y grads: Big headed, boastful, spoilt
THEY want everything to fall into their laps.
And they boast about how tech-savvy, how educated and how much in demand they are.
Meet the Generation Y graduates - those born after 1982 - successors to Gen X. who were known for being cynical and disaffectionate.
If you're an employer in the UK, you probably wouldn't want to meet this particular bunch - the ones many employers are labelling 'graduate divas'.
They're the ones who lack initiative, over-sell themselves, and walk into an interview room chirping 'you all right, mate?'
A report in The Daily Mail says bosses in the UK are looking overseas for staff with a stronger work ethic in a bid to avoid self-centred, fickle and greedy employees.
The article comes after a report from the Association of Graduate Recruiters (AGR) that revealed employers' recruitment difficulties on the low calibre of graduates.
Those in Gen Y are said to be career-orientated, but many bosses find them less than satisfactory. As a result, a quarter of employers now actively market vacancies abroad.
More than two-thirds of the 217employers polled predicted recruitment difficulties in the comingyear - up from 55.4 per cent a yearago.
And last year, nearly half had to leave prized graduate jobs open, even though universities turned out record numbers of students.
Some Gen Y graduates reportedly lack literacy and numeracy skills. Others present themselves poorly.
According to the report, based on responses from employers in investment banks, law and accountancy firms, some Gen Y graduates lack initiative and expect to be pandered to.
In one case, a new recruit to a transport company was heard on the phone saying to his mum: 'I have got to go to London tomorrow and they haven't even told me how to get there.'
MrCarl Gilleard, AGR chief executive, said: 'The employer threw up her hands in anger.
'Here was someone working for a transport company, was 21, spent three years at university and who was aggrieved because he hadn't been given a detailed map.'
Mr Gilleard added: 'There is a sense among Generation Y that they want it all and they want it now. Generation Y is me, me, me, but the employer thinks, no, it's us, us, us.
'I think there is a wake-up call... As far as graduates are concerned, it's really important they understand the rules of the game.'
The demand for top graduates is illustrated by the report's finding that the number of vacancies is at a 10-year high and is expected to rise.
The report also said that graduates are often seen as 'divas... who expect everything to fall into their laps'.
It noted: 'A quarter (of employers) praise the 'strong work ethic and desire to succeed' of overseas graduates.'
Mr Gilleard added: 'This may have wider long-term implications...and both employers and graduates may have to amend their expectations.'
Perhaps it's time for fresh grads, from any generation for that matter, to stop thinking that it's all about them.
---- taken from The Electric New Paper http://tnp.sg/news/story/0,4136,155397,00.html , author unknown
------------------------------------------------------
Well, sometimes it takes more than jus getting a 1st class honours, being in the dean's list (or chair's list or whatever u call tat now), 4.5gpa or scoring an A for ur FYP.... being educated n brought up in a result centric and i am sad to say, "narrow-minded" society, its hard not to think otherwise.
Sunday, February 3, 2008
Well, i cant believe i still can get involved in such a thing. Today, a damn bo liao guy came n talked to me on MSN n asked me all those IRC qns. In case u YOUNG ppl dunnoe wat irc is, its the old internet relay chat system (which i dunnoe if anyone is still using it anymore) whereby ppl go online n find random ppl to chat with. Well, as u all can imagine due to its anonymity, there r lots of ppl on these chat channels making frenz, downloading music, disturbing ppl n ya, asking for free sex n stuff.
So this guy came along n asked me whether i got bf or nt la, how many bfs la.. n some very personal qns.. watever watever... pengz. i really contemplated shld i play along with him or nt. haha.. but well, urs truly is nt 15 anymore n MSN is my true identity, so NO, i shld juz dump him into my block list. hahaha..
Anyway, came across some photos the CS peeps put up in facebook. some year 1 photos when we took during the 1st day of sch. PENGZ. disgusting can.. haha.. really, i dun hav many frenz in CS n hav nv take many proper photos in my sch also. think i shld go ard taking photos of NTU n my sch 1 day.. b4 the old age catches up on me n i forgot how they look like.
Here r some photos i managed to squeeze out of my com. haha.. its really nt much:
So this guy came along n asked me whether i got bf or nt la, how many bfs la.. n some very personal qns.. watever watever... pengz. i really contemplated shld i play along with him or nt. haha.. but well, urs truly is nt 15 anymore n MSN is my true identity, so NO, i shld juz dump him into my block list. hahaha..
Anyway, came across some photos the CS peeps put up in facebook. some year 1 photos when we took during the 1st day of sch. PENGZ. disgusting can.. haha.. really, i dun hav many frenz in CS n hav nv take many proper photos in my sch also. think i shld go ard taking photos of NTU n my sch 1 day.. b4 the old age catches up on me n i forgot how they look like.
Here r some photos i managed to squeeze out of my com. haha.. its really nt much:
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