Thursday, February 28, 2008

Hahahaha... i cant help but b so amused by the papers n news reports that i've came acrossed today.

"His escape is a surprise because the SG govt takes security very seriously. It's a FREAK incident"

"There, he requested to go to the toilet and escaped"

"The incident should not have happened and he is sorry that it had"

"He added that the security at the centre has since been stepped up"

"Why, since Mas Selamat is a security threat, did the authorities take four hours to inform the public of the escape? "

And of cos i am talking about the leader of SG JI network who had merrily escaped frm a detention centre from u guessed it! the toilet. I know what would come next, "It's an honest mistake!" So much for our world class police force... =)

The place where this man escaped from is rather near my house... hahaha... oh my, he could be lurking ard my house area, hillview, woodlands, bukit panjang n cck since there r quite a few forested areas ard.

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""2 % gst to "help" the poor.
ERP gantries to "help" the flow of traffic
Increase ministers' pay to "help" the govt retain "talent"
Debate in parliments for months still cannot decide to increase the welfare grant tat helps the poor
$288k sgd to nurture FT athelete to "help" improve Sg's sport's standing""

Need we say more.....

Monday, February 25, 2008

Another dull day at home...

Oh man, i guess its really nt gd to b slacking so much. Now that i've waited so long till the start of my work, i somehow feel lazier n lost the drive (well, it as if i have much to begin with).

Can believe this week is also the recess week for NTU. gosh, havent they just started sch? time really dammingly flew!

6 more days till my 1st day of work. oh my, i somehow dragged it n feel so sian at home now, doing nothing. Hmmm... think i shld make my way to west coast tml, to slack n drink latte, like always used to do b4 i go into uni. hahahaah... well, those were the days tat are fondly missed.

If there is only 1 thing that no one in the world can hold on to, it will be: Time.

P.S. Oh ya, did i mention tat i am now hopelessly FAT??? gosh! after the shanghai n CNY ordeal i am now approacing a brand new heights for my WEIGHT! ok, the number 1 thing to do now is to cut the junks n do some bones n muscles rocking man... cut my beer belly (ARGH!), my fat thighs n my exploding butt. oh ya man... go go go!!!

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

Hopelessly broke but still hopeful

Although i am helplessly broke, i still got myself a pair of jeans that cost me $140, togetherwith a watch tat cost $175 n a pair of slippers that cost $35!

Although i know i wont have much $$ left b4 i start getting my 1st pay, i am still going to watch at least 1 movie per week! hahaha..

I'm still getting calls these few days to ask me to go for interviews and 2nd interviews. Maybe i made my decision too fast? oh well.... I am still hopeful ok.. no matter wat it is, ya i am still hopeful..

Anyway, managed to catch Juno yesterday. Basically its a story abt a teenage girl who was unexpectedly impregnant by a fren and how she handled her unwanted pregnancy and the consequences that were brought to her. Ok, its nt bad for a small budget indie film... nt as funny as i've hope it will be. It can be more heart warming with much more character & story development. My guess is that the director do nt want to shift the focus of the main storyline n kept it as wat it is. The acting is gd through, juz a simple script that was put into gd play by excellent actors n actresses. Simply a light hearted movie that u can relax and watch after a stressed out day at work. A bit of a overrated i would say but still, its better than those big budget hollywood movie by far (read: spiderman 3, fantastic 4, transformers blah blah...).

Am going to catch Death Note L: Change the World and The Leap Years. Yeeeeel, a local production? hahha.. after i caught the trailer yest, i tot it was quite decent considering that its a local production. simple love story nonetheless but.. hope it'll b gd.

"Its better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all..."



P.S. I think the music that accompanied this trailer ROCKS! But too bad, its a ripped off of Ryuichi Sakamoto's Forbbiden Colours (juz changing the melody abit here n there n u'll escaped plagiarism! tat was wat we were taught in sch anyway). Go youTubed it if u like.

Monday, February 18, 2008

Life in NTU: The closing...

Juz called the sch to check if i still have any outstanding bills with them; all clear. Good! Which means i can go and collect my final transcript tml n that will mark the end of my NTU life.

3 and a half years in NTU, it sounds like a long time but well, time flew by so fast it feels like i am still in year 1. *Starts to recall....


March 2004:

Accompanied fen to a career fair cos both of us were equally lost at that time. Actually i have aldy made up my mind to further my studies in Aussie, Mudorch Uni n was in the midst of accepting the offer. But who noes? I came across a NTU, Comm Studies booth at the career fair n immediately tot this course looks and sounds nt bad. I went over to speak to the prof whom i still remember, is Dr. Xu Xiaoge. He talked to me abt some details of the course n said that year is the 1st year they started accepting poly students. I told him i came from a quite different poly course n didnt have a Certificate of Merit. But i still remember him telling me, "but its still worth a try".

And hell did i try. the registration process was long n troublesome but i nv give up bcos i kept telling myself "as long as i tried my best, i wont hav any regrets." So, i submitted all my testimonials, my poly transcripts, self-written personal statement, SAT results blah blah.. Went for the interview, did the test n such. After all tat, actually i nv tot i will be selected due to my pessemistic nature. hahaha... I was actually preparing mysrlf to go Australia aldy.


Apr 2004

On that faithful day, which i've forgotten when was it, i opened my mailbox n received an acceptance letter from NTU. "OMG! i was accepted!!!" for a moment i couldnt believe it.. i contemplated for a few moment.. a few days.. 4 yrs in sg or 2 yrs in Aussie? i even asked a few of my frenz for opinion, in the end, i chose the longer route. The rest is history.


NTU Sem 1, 2004/2005 academic year

From that day onwards till the end of semester 1, i tot i was the happiest and luckiest person on earth. hahaha.. a lot of things happened but unfortunately, i took everything for granted what i had until i lost it. but 1 thing, i admit sch sux to the core.. i was in for a culture shock n did poorly for my sch work.

Sem 2, 3 n 4 passed quickly like its nobody's business. got to noe more frenz in sch but nt really close 1s.. At a pt of time, i really loathed my life in NTU but i always got a bunch of old frenz to keep me going. As sem 5 approached, i went thru a period tat really allowed me to learn grow. Had the busiest semester in uni, projects after projects, difficult modules n when i tot i couldn't make it thru, i came upon setbacks, misunderstandings n stuff. but it is through this experience that taught me the ugly sides of human beings, including my own. I promised myself a lot of things during this period of time, n these promises shall stick with me till the end.

Fortunately, it is also cos of this that i've decided to venture out for my internship, which saw me packing my bags for Shanghai. The 6mths spent in a foreign land with complete strangers is a strange ordeal... Strange yet so fun! I had the time of my life perhaps... for the traveling, shopping, cold weather, squeezing trains, the food, the Chinese ppl, the alcohol.. oh my.. Was that the rite choice...

So eventually, i hung on for 3 and a half years. What can be described as a roller coaster Uni life ended on a high note, which i'm really glad to hav. Although i wouldn't say i've enjoyed my uni life but it certainly is an impt (if the most impt) part of my life. I tot i regretted nt going to Aussie to pursue my degree but thinking back, i guessed i've made the right choice afterall. 不能够天长地久但至少我曾经拥有...

Thank Serene, Ziwei n Diane who sticked with me for most of the projects. We had our ups n downs, quarrels and happiness. I guessed its all part of a gd experience ya? Not forgetting they are also the peeps who gave me considerably fair amt of comfort and encouragement when i was down. I wont forget our days in our small, little sch. the benches, the tiny tutorial rooms, the 100 odd seats lecture theatre, the studio, etc. back then they don't mean a thing, but now, it means a lot. cos it forms a past that i can nv, ever go back to. thanks.

Thanks all the teaching and admin staff of WKWSCI & NTU more notably, Dr. Angela Mak, Dr. Foo Tee Tuan, Dr. Lee Chun Wah & Dr. Xu Xiaoge (who also approved of me going to GIP).. Who taught us with fair amt of passion n gave us the help when we needed some.

A big thank to all the frenz who helped me pull through, who accommodate to my stupidity, my naive thoughts, my stubborness and attention. And of cos, to you, who is ever so impatient but yet, given me so much patience throughout the years n beared with all the shit i hav given u... i am nv a person gd with words, its hard i guess. with all those that had happened, i guess both of us will continue to live in fear, doubts n misunderstandings that can nv be cleared. but no matter what, maybe somehow.. it will still b a part of me.

Nanyang Technological University
Degree of Bachelor of Communication Studies
2004-2007

Bye Bye...

Sunday, February 17, 2008

Pls remember ur past lessons...



Tattoo by Jordin Sparks

Oh, oh, oh

No matter what you say about love
I keep coming back for more
Keep my hand in the fire
Sooner or later, I'll get what I'm asking for

No matter what you say about life
I learn every time I bleed
That truth is a stranger
Soul is in danger, I gotta let my spirit be free

To admit that I'm wrong
And then change my mind
Sorry but I have to move on
And leave you behind

[Chorus]
I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize, nothing's broken
No need to worry 'bout everything I've done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back at a new direction
I loved you once, needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo

(Just like a tattoo, I'll always have you
I'll always have you, I'll always have you)

I'm sick of playing all of these games
It's not about taking sides
When I looked in the mirror, didn't deliver
It hurt enough to think that I could

Stop, admit that I'm wrong
And then change my mind
Sorry but I gotta be strong
And leave you behind

[Chorus]

(Just like a tattoo, I'll always have you
I'll always have you)

[Bridge]
If I live every moment
Won't change any moment
Still a part of me and you
I will never regret you
Still the memory of you
Marks everything i do

[Chorus x2]

Just like a tattoo
I'll always have you

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Tattooed at the back of my mind & heart and that's quite enough.

The past is haunting which i've came to realize n it will served to remind me of wat are the right things to do.

Well, my heart shall remain hard n determined.

3 times r juz abt enuff.

Saturday, February 16, 2008

Everything has more or less settled down, ya, except for the fact tat i shld hav asked for more $$. hahaha... oops..

Had a steamboat n bbq at hall 2 yest with the GIP peeps. haha... full attendance from Pudong side, kudos to everyone who attended. even had the chance to eat our fav mala hot pot although we look really ah thiong with tat. haha... many of them had gd time eating n do catching up although wat most of them talk abt is only sch stuff. haha.. but still, wanna thanks carmen, jing jing n ben for organizing u putting everything together n all the rest who attended.

Happy CNY everyone!

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

The Search is Over

Finally, the search is over.

hope i did not make the wrong decision that is.



How can I convince you
what you see is real
Who am I to blame you
for doubting what you feel
I was always reachin',
you were just a girl I knew
I took for granted the friend I have in you

I was living for a dream,
loving for a moment
Taking on the world,
that was just my style
Now I look into your eyes,
I can see forever
The search is over,
you were with me all the while

Can we last forever,
will we fall apart
At times it's so confusing,
the questions of the heart
You followed me through changes,
and patiently you'd wait
Till I came to my senses,
through some miracle of fate

I was living for a dream,
loving for a moment
Taking on the world,
that was just my style
Now I look into your eyes,
I can see forever
The search is over,
you were with me all the while

Now the miles stretch out behind me,
loves that I have lost
Broken hearts lie victims of the game
Then good luck,
it finally stuck like lightning from the blue
Every highway's leading me back to you
Now at last I hold you,
now all is said and done
The search has come full circle,
our destinies are one
So if you ever loved me,
show me that you give a damn
You'll know for certain the man I really am

I was living for a dream,
loving for a moment
Taking on the world,
that was just my style
When I touched your hand,
I could hear you whisper
The search is over,
love was right before my eyes

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well, this song still brings back memories. used to b the fav.... *shrug

Anyway, i shld b glad. hee hee... end of the interview marathon! can slack till march liao.

Monday, February 11, 2008

Alright guys...

Much as I believe in the freedom of speech, I will not condone spamming and nonsensical rhetorics in my blog. I appreciate and welcome tags and comments that can add life to this blog n make it more interesting. however, excessive unrelated materials r a waste of time, space n might b annoying.

but then again, pls feel free to continue the comments n tags tat r deemed appropriate in my blog.

Respect others, and others will respect you, if otherwise, i'm afraid i cannot condone.

If you think its wrong, make it right.

If you think its bad, make it good.

If you think its too late, well, its never too late cos its only a matter of will.

Wednesday, February 6, 2008

鼠年大旺! haha..

Its another brand new CNY soon n i'm gonna say it again, time really flies! still remember i was selling CNY plants in FEF last yr la.. aiyoh..

Anyway, a new year means we muz start everything anew. i am a chirpier mood these few days... am glad. things went on quite ok i guess. but after the CNY holidays, well, think i will go crazy! haha.. many things to do. hope everything will continue smoothly.

世事无难事, 只怕有心人. 2008在继续加油吧!

Tuesday, February 5, 2008

An interesting read...

UK bosses fed up with self-centred diva grads
Gen Y grads: Big headed, boastful, spoilt


THEY want everything to fall into their laps.

And they boast about how tech-savvy, how educated and how much in demand they are.

Meet the Generation Y graduates - those born after 1982 - successors to Gen X. who were known for being cynical and disaffectionate.

If you're an employer in the UK, you probably wouldn't want to meet this particular bunch - the ones many employers are labelling 'graduate divas'.

They're the ones who lack initiative, over-sell themselves, and walk into an interview room chirping 'you all right, mate?'

A report in The Daily Mail says bosses in the UK are looking overseas for staff with a stronger work ethic in a bid to avoid self-centred, fickle and greedy employees.

The article comes after a report from the Association of Graduate Recruiters (AGR) that revealed employers' recruitment difficulties on the low calibre of graduates.

Those in Gen Y are said to be career-orientated, but many bosses find them less than satisfactory. As a result, a quarter of employers now actively market vacancies abroad.

More than two-thirds of the 217employers polled predicted recruitment difficulties in the comingyear - up from 55.4 per cent a yearago.

And last year, nearly half had to leave prized graduate jobs open, even though universities turned out record numbers of students.

Some Gen Y graduates reportedly lack literacy and numeracy skills. Others present themselves poorly.

According to the report, based on responses from employers in investment banks, law and accountancy firms, some Gen Y graduates lack initiative and expect to be pandered to.

In one case, a new recruit to a transport company was heard on the phone saying to his mum: 'I have got to go to London tomorrow and they haven't even told me how to get there.'

MrCarl Gilleard, AGR chief executive, said: 'The employer threw up her hands in anger.

'Here was someone working for a transport company, was 21, spent three years at university and who was aggrieved because he hadn't been given a detailed map.'

Mr Gilleard added: 'There is a sense among Generation Y that they want it all and they want it now. Generation Y is me, me, me, but the employer thinks, no, it's us, us, us.

'I think there is a wake-up call... As far as graduates are concerned, it's really important they understand the rules of the game.'

The demand for top graduates is illustrated by the report's finding that the number of vacancies is at a 10-year high and is expected to rise.

The report also said that graduates are often seen as 'divas... who expect everything to fall into their laps'.

It noted: 'A quarter (of employers) praise the 'strong work ethic and desire to succeed' of overseas graduates.'

Mr Gilleard added: 'This may have wider long-term implications...and both employers and graduates may have to amend their expectations.'

Perhaps it's time for fresh grads, from any generation for that matter, to stop thinking that it's all about them.

---- taken from The Electric New Paper http://tnp.sg/news/story/0,4136,155397,00.html , author unknown

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Well, sometimes it takes more than jus getting a 1st class honours, being in the dean's list (or chair's list or whatever u call tat now), 4.5gpa or scoring an A for ur FYP.... being educated n brought up in a result centric and i am sad to say, "narrow-minded" society, its hard not to think otherwise.

Sunday, February 3, 2008

Well, i cant believe i still can get involved in such a thing. Today, a damn bo liao guy came n talked to me on MSN n asked me all those IRC qns. In case u YOUNG ppl dunnoe wat irc is, its the old internet relay chat system (which i dunnoe if anyone is still using it anymore) whereby ppl go online n find random ppl to chat with. Well, as u all can imagine due to its anonymity, there r lots of ppl on these chat channels making frenz, downloading music, disturbing ppl n ya, asking for free sex n stuff.

So this guy came along n asked me whether i got bf or nt la, how many bfs la.. n some very personal qns.. watever watever... pengz. i really contemplated shld i play along with him or nt. haha.. but well, urs truly is nt 15 anymore n MSN is my true identity, so NO, i shld juz dump him into my block list. hahaha..

Anyway, came across some photos the CS peeps put up in facebook. some year 1 photos when we took during the 1st day of sch. PENGZ. disgusting can.. haha.. really, i dun hav many frenz in CS n hav nv take many proper photos in my sch also. think i shld go ard taking photos of NTU n my sch 1 day.. b4 the old age catches up on me n i forgot how they look like.

Here r some photos i managed to squeeze out of my com. haha.. its really nt much:






Saturday, February 2, 2008

Looks like its back to sqaure all over again. oh well, hope it is the right decision ya?

Anyway, i juz dun understand y some ppl juz nv admit mistake. whenever something happened, its nv their fault or wrong. they blame the whole world except themselves, pting fingers to anything that they can lay their blame on. ya, excuses after excuses... this is making me fed up! ppl, learn ur mistakes n grow with them! no 1 is perfect n we all muz admit wat has been done wrong so tat we can prevent the same thing happening again. obviously, nt everyone can understand ya.

Oh Ya, i'm FINALLY going to play MJ today.. haha.. better brush up my skills to prepare for the CNY onslaught. HUAT ah! n speaking of which, omg... CNY is approaching like wat? nex week? the tot of it depresses me! haha.. i dunnoe y, but i juz really draggggged it. but oh well, ping chang xin ya.. new mousy yr le, jia you jia you! its a ok year for dogs, nt very gd for both pigs n tigers. hmm.. but nvm, my dog year is horrendous too but we will all get thru!